Saturday, May 12, 2007
i wanted to update my blog with photos but some slow coach have not sent me the pics.
lol.
i'll update later.
2 eventful things happen yesterday.
firstly..botanical gardens with sufiyan
and secondly....
our "surprise" mother's day dinner for our moms
why "surprise"? cos everybody is so bad at surprising and the moms ended up calling each other. *smacks forehead* but at least our moms were happy.
(:
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| 10:37 PM |
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Friday, May 11, 2007
went for my very first foc or should i say social camp meeting just now. i think im gonna love this com. quite an impressive line up and i have a lot of faith in the leadership. the meeting was just the way i like it. very professional, not boring and brimming to enthusiasm and creativity. i was given a small role as requested. secretary. sighs..haha..this would be my second time. and i havent uploaded the minutes to the yahoo group which i am supposed to find out how to set up. was busy with the mother's day gift. shirah was complaining as she help me cut out the daisies. said i should have opted for roses instead cos tey're not as intricate and a whole lot easier to cut. haha..but we managed to finish most part of it at least. i really hope my mom likes it. i know that she has really gone thru hell for us. and i just wanted to show her that we do care.
went to the cool scrap book store at PS. shucks i forgot the name again. it's a really cool store with everything u need for scrapbooking under one roof. tho i must say it's a rip off. i mean the idea of scrap booking is essentially to take scraps from here and there that bear special memories, so if they're selling like little trinkets in a bottle for like 12 bucks. it's a rip off..but still the store is nice and i like the concept.
but anyways..back to what i was saying about family. i really worry if i take my family for granted cos i noe that we're bonded by blood and i always take it that they wont be running away from me or severing their ties with me. now that im caught up with my three projects, i worry that i wont be able to devote as much time for them. but on a brighter note, im taking light roles for my three projects, so i might take up the maid position in my family that my mother offered to me. so typical of me, sticking my nose in as many places as possible. as for now, im torn on whether to be involved in dsl cos im afraid that i wont be able to juggle it. fear of not being able to handle smtg always forces me to take a step back but yet at the same time, i dont want to be too ambitious. i know i cant run the world and i cant do a lot of things at once. but im trying very hard. sufiyan always remind me that i must learn to prioritise, but it's so hard when it feels as if i every single aspect of my life is equally important to me.
i hope my loved ones understand me as i go thru this period of trial and error when i might mistreat them or not give them the time that they deserve. oh well that's it from me for tonight. pls pray that things go well for the weekend (:
ps. a big shout out to timah the chipmunk!
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| 11:53 PM |
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Thursday, May 10, 2007
today i stayed home and pretty much bummed around. i know there was a ton to do but i chose to just rot and surf the internet. i admit that i did a teeny weeny bit of housework. clean up my room a bit although i must say not properly. i just dragged the magic clean wiper around the house a bit. fried shirah a bit of vegetable so that she stays healthy. lol. and my mom asked me to make roti kirai. so i got about doing that. made my parents boring yellow ones and ina requested for green ones. so i wnet crazy and putin quite a bit of colouring to make sure that it was deep green and not wussy green. hahaha... well in the end ina told me that it looked gross, but she said she liked it..so yay..happy family eats roti kirai with chicken curry.
so here's the green one while it's still in the pan. haha..i dun think it looks tt gross..i think it looks like kuih dadah no? i wanted to make pink and blue ones but my mom didnt have the colouring. oh well..i'll get some and make some more the next time.
was supposed to go out and get stuff today but my pentas budaya meeting got pushed up and now i can only attend my foc meeting. that means that after the foc meeting i could actually go to PS nd look for the scrapbook store. shoot, i'm out of ideas for mother's day. i thought i knew what to do but im pretty stuck and the im afraid that the other thing im planning wont pull through cos there's a lot of problems. tried sufring the martha stewart websit and they go some pretty good ideas i must say. i'll find a way i guess. maybe i'll get that horse top from forever 21 to reward myself. that was so obviously a lame excuse to shop. yikes i need to type down the programs properly for muslimah night. i'll do it after i do the dishes tonight
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| 7:47 PM |
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Wednesday, May 09, 2007
blogger is still screwed up. damn it. it's odd cos i cant align my post properly and it's frustrating...oh well shant dwell on it. went for my very first muslimah night meeting just now. yup. those pics are of some of the girls i'd be working with. a fun bunch off ppl to work with but i feel thta amongst them i'm the most like unfeminine. haha..is there such a thing..but ya beside all of them i seem so aggresive. told them my ideas and stuff. yup. so i gotta get down to actually typing out the plan properly nad working with the logs girls for the stuff i need. oh pls pls let this go on smoothly. anyone interested to go? it's really fun..really......
so after tat i headed to town to catch spidey three with lailak and winni. oh well..wonder whether we're the last few ppl on earth who havent caught that movie..well if we are...not anymore..hahha...hmm..i think the movie deserved the three stars that was given by LIFE. i felt that the whole storyline was messy. everything was moving so quickly and it was difficult to adjust to the scenes. no doubt the effects were good.i especially like the effects for the icky black thing..hahha...ok my favourite part would be the last part. i thought that it brought the whole movie together. ohh..and did i mention that i LOOOOOVVVEEEE James Franco!!!!! everytime he goes on screen and smiles, my kness get weak. ok fine maybe im exagerating just a tad. gos i love his smile... oh well i didnt regret watching it but it could be better. (as if i noe so much eh)
so guess what? tomorrow i get to spend the WHOLE day at home!!..yay! finlly..i get to watch all the cooking shows and experience life as a housewife. 2 meetings on friday. FOC and Pentas budaya. havent caughtup with the ppl from pentas budaya for so long.. oh i just realised that i have a ton to do!
ok here's my 2 cents worth about working in projects. i sometimes feel that ppl care more about the politics than actually doing the project right and that just pisses me right off. i mean come one.. nobody gets paid to do all these. we should just really work together and do what we can. yes it's an ideal situation. but sometimes i feel that so much more can be done if ppl just silence all the drama and politics asap. sometimes we dont get ppl's cooperation, but we should just push on, deal with all the drama later..there's more impt things to deal with at hand. like seeing the project thru no? i think im lucky enough to have worked with some of the best ppl my entire life..especially in JC and now. and from today's meeting, i realised that i've really gained a lot of experience...
ok i dunno where that bout of angst came from. haha..must be the hormones.
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| 5:34 PM |
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Tuesday, May 08, 2007
ok i dun care if blogger is like having problems and i cant really blog properly but my earlier post is just insufficient to feed my daily dose of blogging. ok firstly, i didnt realise how much i miss gilmore girls till i came across husna's entry on them. yep they're cancelling the show after 8 seasons. i really really love gilmore girls. i remembered that my best friend back from when i was in crescent introduced it to me. i fell in love with it immediately. i thought it was the coolest thing on earth. i love the characters. especially sookie..hahaha..she always maks me laugh. and kirk. i dunno i love everything about the whole show. oh and i definitely looove the small town that they live in. everything is so cosy. i wouldnt mind living there at all. in fact i always dreamed about living in stars hollow. i havent watched gilmore girls in quite a while and i hate it that channel 5 always placed it at such a lousy time slot. i mean come on. sundays at 6 p.m?! hello..no one is home on sunday at 6 la. they would be really doing everyone a huge favour by atually replacing some of our lousy local productions that hog the prime timings with gilmore girls. sighs..i really miss gilmore girls. i shall save up and buy myself the full series and watch it to my hearts content.
anyways.........im part of the organizing committee for Muslimah night 2007. and this year the theme for the event is bollywood. oh well im not a big fan cos honestly i dun watch much hindi movies. i dunno why, my mom never realy expose me to them. but ya im quite excited cos im in charge of programs and i have a lot of crazy ideas swimming in my head. haha.. am already planning my outfit for the day. just bought a necklace which coincidentally looks indian. so that shall set the tone for my outfit. haha..have no idea what to wear. hope i dun end up wearing a punjabi suit or something cos i know that a lot of ppl would be doing that. oh well i think i have some time to ponder over that.
ooo.what else did i want to ramble about eh....
oh ya..mothers day this sunday. what shall i do for my mom with the extremely small budget that i have. i got something in mind..but i dunno whether it'd be good enough..hope we have a family dinner..haha..always an excuse to meet up....and oh ya..saturday...hehehe..shall not elaborate. oh and i wont be joining the pbm team to msia after all... :( just realised that it would coincide with both my sisters birthdays. and i hate to miss their birthday. i know it's very impt to them. shirah has already asked me what im getiing her..geez..the nerves of tat girl.
been catching up with tv these days. am so proud of myself...it feels as if i've been isolated from the real world for so long...been watching martha steward, oprah...hahaha..man i really love cooking shows..i like cooking..just not the cleaning up part..hmm..wouldnt it be great if one day i got really good at coooking, i invite some friends over for like lunch. ok just the thot of it is getting me all excited..man this month of may is really bustling with activities for me..i realise that i have a lot of planning to do..there's a lot to celebrate..birthdays, mothers day, events..it's all so exciting..hey maybe i should be a planner..ahh..tat would be exciting no?..ok im starting to feel as if im talking to myself...
im all excited and i shall do more research so that this month would be a blast for those who really deserve it. i simply cant wait (:Labels: serious ramblings
| 11:16 PM |
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somethings wrong with blogger today......
aniweis me hudee and winni headed down to town today to look for a part time job. our attemps were unfortunately futile. there were either no part time jobs or the job is not flexible enough to allow their employers to wear the headscarf. i really do not understand the basis of this. what's wrong with wearing the headscarf while doing a front line job. so far, i have not come across anybody who could give me a very good explanation for this. if you want to talk about uniformity, why cant the headscarf part of a uniform. i mean a substantial number of muslim girls adorn the hearscarf. singapore preach so much about acceptance and toerance, but why is the malay headscarf and exception. it's just a piece of cloth that a muslim girl places on her head. i dun think its symbol affects the position tt the girl is asking for in a company. if it does how? im quite frustrated. i know that there are jobs which allow their female muslim employers to wear the headscarf but i just do not get it why some companies are still hesitant about it.Labels: headscarf
| 8:38 PM |
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Monday, May 07, 2007
my 200th entry...
haha...
i blog THAT much
anyways...
i want this very badly..:(
i was just thinking..this whole chasing after honours. working so hard to pull up my CAP score so that i am eligible for it. but i never really question why i want it so badly. and just now while reflecting, i am really afraid that my intentions are not sincere and pure. is it really for knowledge. or is it just because i know that it would look good on my resume. is it because i want my aunties and uncles to look at me and tell my cousins to take my lead? is it because i want my friends to see thay "hey Lin is not so dumb after all"? i don't think tat i am all that academic, as in i dont think i would enjoy the process at all...but since young i've worked hard for my tests and exams but they're not really my life and soul. I noe some people who are really out there and enthusiastic about their education. how i sometimes wish i was more like them. i know that education is important. but i also know that there is more to life. what if i choose not to take my honours even if i can? what if i choose the path to becoming a housewife and a devoted mother. what if i put in my everythng into my education just for the sake of getting a good degree and getting a good job. i now tat if i do that, i would just be living in cycle after cycle bcos when i complete my university education, that is not the end. i would just enter another cycle where i would put in my heart and soul clambering for the top position. for what? money? prestige? a name in society? i am pretty damn sure that i would not be enjoying the ride. but this is life. in Singapore. I am already sucked in the system. i feel the pressure to do well because when i see my peers i get scared. i dont want to be on the losing end. who wants to be on the losing end? i feel that everything i do now is relative to what others do. which is down right depressing. it's like that dumb bell curve that NUS uses to grade us. honestly i dunno where this entry is heading to. what i know is wherever im heading to.......i dun want to not enjoy the ride. i do not want to do something for the sake of doing it. i feel like i've been doing a lot of that in my life. i dun mind feeling tired. i might whine,complain talk about giving up. but im just being my irritating and attention seeking self. but hey at least im enjoying what im doing right. so ya..that's my first aim cos i've been trying to find an aim/objective in life, and that is to not feel obligated to do the things i have to do in life. to find the true meaning behind each and every path that i take. and to not do things that i do not believe in the aim behind it even if it promises wealth and prestige.
ok i have to say that after re-reading this entry it is very badly structured. but i guess that's the way it is when i am typing and thinking at the same time. lol. it's all over the place.
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| 8:19 PM |
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Sunday, May 06, 2007
ok first and foremost...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAILA J!!!!
welcome to the 20 club. haha. altho i would be leaving this group very soon.(in 1 month and 14 days to be specific) but yes welcome to the group of ppl with the number 2 in front of their ages..dun worry la..it's not so bad.. :)
a little something that i learnt yesterday at the museum. this is a picture of a girl who is an
Ouled Nail. they are entertainers from Algeria. Between the ages of 9 ad 12, they learn the art of dancing and love making. they are also called the geishas of the middle east. however they are not prostitutes, they adorn themselves with very colourful and interesting costumes and dance for the men in the tents that nomads live in. some say that they would even dance in the flesh. kind of like belly dancers. some of their jewellery are actually spikes, to help them ward off unwanted attention or men who get too friendly. However after marriage these girls usually return to normal like and lead their lives as good wives and mothers.
i thought that this was an interesting piece of information. However what left me perplexed was how come the culture of these kind of women exists in the middle east. from what little i know, Islam is very in grained in the middle eastern culture. though i know that not all arabs are muslim it's so ironic that the arab world is quite known for belly dancing. haha..i should read up more about this. (:
speaking about beauty(well sort of)..on friday..i asked my mom very nicely...whether she would spare a teeny wenny portion of her money to make braces for me..after a looooooooong pause..she said that she "didnt mind". then she added about how she's afraid that i would look ugly after the process and that my bugsy teeth make me who i am. in her words "it makes you special". it sounds like a line from Barney. but ya la i love my mom and we shall see how this one goes la.
oh well tomoro is a very important day..i shall not elaborate more but i wont be able to attend 2 meetings tomorrow....
anyways..
this is so random but i just lasted a whole fifteen minutes of conversation with sufiyan with a fake chinese accent. such nonsense!
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| 10:57 PM |
Adieu.
today i stayed home and pretty much bummed around. i know there was a ton to do but i chose to just rot and surf the internet. i admit that i did a teeny weeny bit of housework. clean up my room a bit although i must say not properly. i just dragged the magic clean wiper around the house a bit. fried shirah a bit of vegetable so that she stays healthy. lol. and my mom asked me to make roti kirai. so i got about doing that. made my parents boring yellow ones and ina requested for green ones. so i wnet crazy and putin quite a bit of colouring to make sure that it was deep green and not wussy green. hahaha... well in the end ina told me that it looked gross, but she said she liked it..so yay..happy family eats roti kirai with chicken curry.
so here's the green one while it's still in the pan. haha..i dun think it looks tt gross..i think it looks like kuih dadah no? i wanted to make pink and blue ones but my mom didnt have the colouring. oh well..i'll get some and make some more the next time.
ok i dun care if blogger is like having problems and i cant really blog properly but my earlier post is just insufficient to feed my daily dose of blogging. ok firstly, i didnt realise how much i miss gilmore girls till i came across husna's entry on them. yep they're cancelling the show after 8 seasons. i really really love gilmore girls. i remembered that my best friend back from when i was in crescent introduced it to me. i fell in love with it immediately. i thought it was the coolest thing on earth. i love the characters. especially sookie..hahaha..she always maks me laugh. and kirk. i dunno i love everything about the whole show. oh and i definitely looove the small town that they live in. everything is so cosy. i wouldnt mind living there at all. in fact i always dreamed about living in stars hollow. i havent watched gilmore girls in quite a while and i hate it that channel 5 always placed it at such a lousy time slot. i mean come on. sundays at 6 p.m?! hello..no one is home on sunday at 6 la. they would be really doing everyone a huge favour by atually replacing some of our lousy local productions that hog the prime timings with gilmore girls. sighs..i really miss gilmore girls. i shall save up and buy myself the full series and watch it to my hearts content.
i want this very badly..
