i logged on to my blogger account not able to decide what to say about the company preview. yes i was disappointed. that's the thing about company previews, it makes you feel like the biggest loser, the worst actress in my case. i makes me feel like i was born with no talent. it makes me the lowest of low. it just makes me feel like i couldnt do anything right because the truth was i did put in my best yesterday and that was the response i got. when i look at disppointed faces, i realise that i havent had that in a long long time. i havent handled criticisms in a long long time, in fact i think that i am bad at handling them. i always try my best so that i dont have to face that disappointed face. i realise that in my life, my biggest critic is myself. even when i handle projects for pbm,etc, i know my own mistakes. like for pentas budaya when i know that i did and am doing a horrible job, i know that it was my doing. nobody scolded me, nobody showed me that they were unhappy but i knew that i wasn't doing my best. maybe that's what i need..more critcism..constructive ones that is...and i need to handle them like a WOMAN and pick myself up after that. i know it builds character. i know that when it hurts really alot. but it came after two full days of pure fun and maybe too much laughter on my part. haha :)

ok im slow...i just discovered picassa..hahahaha..so the whole not-being-able-to-upload-pictures-with-blogger thing was a blessing in disguise :)

pictures were from outing with liyanna

i found an incerdibly irritating way to upload my pics.. firstly i upload it to friendster..than i copy the html of the pic and past it to blogger..and voila..pictures!! but the bad side is that it's so small..but at least it's something!
:( i must seriously do smtg about this



Bukit Timah Campus. it's so so unfair that the law students get such a gorgeous campus..ppl like haireez so totally do not deserve it at all....i wish the restrooms at Arts were as nice as those at BTC. the whole place is just a perfect place to take pictures!

i miss ranting about things i do on a daily basis. yes they are mindless and quite boring to ppl who read my blog. but to me, it's fun reiterating what happened to me on that particular. esp the sweeter moments during the day. like yesterday when me and liyanna met up after so long..(sorry hafiz no pics ah...my lappie rosak :( ) and we sat at tcc to enjoy nice and expensive (for my range) desserts and of course very nicely presented. (i have pictures of what i ate, but once again i cant upload my pics. :( ) and how i met up with the dsl ppl for a little while for our "meeting". and dinner with sufiyan at some place we have never frequented (Newton) to enjoy very very good seafood which i have been craving for....and the much needed walk to Orchard (to so-call burn off everything that i ate..yeah right)

but today was something else. honestly i am super bloody shagged for the mock camp altho i cheated byt tagging along in hudee's car. i bet i wll fall asleep soon. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

ok yes wheare were we...at the end of teh day it was me, hudee, haireez and wiwiek having a heart to heart talk in the longer than expected car journey. :) that was nice. and yes ppl what was said in the car will remain in the car :D

if someone do really have an idea on how to fix my situation wih my com. pls tell me! merci!

why?

why? why?

why? why? why?

why? why? why? why?

why? why? why? why? why?

I CANT UPLOAD PICS! and so i cannot blog in peace...why must this happen to me. i dont ask for much in life :(

ok i really cannot upload photos for some reason and i am contemplating moving to wordpress or blogdrive. i dunno whether it's my com or blogger cos i cant seem to upload photos to friendster either. and it's really bloody irritating..cos i love photos on my blog..and those photos that u see, is after wasting a LOT of time on the com waiting and trying it over and over again. and let me reiterate it once again...it is BLOODY IRRITATING. cos i have nice photos from yesterday..aaahh..booo...

and i bought really nice shoes...hehehe..finally. i used my Robinsons voucher. Lemme tell you that EVERYTHING i like is made of PIG SKIN when i shop for my shoes!! aarrggghhh..another irritating thing tt has been going on in my life. oh this small nitty gritty trivial deatails that are of such great annoyance. :(

and i foresee a busy giler 2 weeks ahead what with the camp and ppp coming up.

ok just for fun im going to put up my schedule for the next 2 weeks.

Tuesday: PB marketing meeting, meet liyanna, ppp meeting, meet sufiyan

Wednesday: mock camp the whole day

Thursday: mock camp, meet Sufiyan

Friday: do marketing stuff, company preview (die!!)

saturday: tuition, family time, rehearsals

sunday: tuition, meet sufiyan, family time, ngaji

monday: bump in

tuesday: day one camp

wedenesday: day 2 camp

thursday: PPP (Showtime!!)(hope i dun die)

friday: last day of camp

and finally semi- FREEDOM!!!!!

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