Saturday, September 23, 2006
thiis morning..i woke up to my father knocking on my door asking me wat time my tuition was..thinking it was sunday..i told him that my tuition was late and went back to sleep..shirah came in at 8 to ask me why i still wasn't awake.wen i opened my eyes to see her dressed in her uniform i panicked and realize "shoot it's saturday and by 8 i was actually suppoed to be already at depot road teaching maths"..so i rushed into the bathroom and do all the necessary stuff and by lin record, i got ready in less then half an hour was very proud of myself..luckily my dad had work today so he could drop me off at my tuition place....phew..i reached at nine...so that meant that my schedule for the day was pushed backwards for half an hour...today's tuition was different in a sense that it was under the void deck which was better actually..my tutee's plce was surrounded by mount faber or something so it was really cooler...now i understand about the whole bringing down singapore's temperature by planting trees..thanks to my mod on natural heritage of singpore..yay! hahhaha..
so after that i rushed to my tajwid class..i was like late and luckily i only missed the re-cap on last week's lesson..so this week we just did readings of surah..and i'm getting better hopefully..still working on my arab accent..hahhaha...erm..ok la half way there not half as good as ustadz zul...today is tarawih..still can't believe that the holy month of Ramadhan is here once again..:D so maybe today i can practice on my arab accent during the quraan recitation..hahhaha..maybe eh...the last fifteen mins of the lesson ustadz zul just touched a bit about Ramadhan and how we have to seize the oppurtunity.bcos we never noe whether we will live to see the next Ramadhan..and the ganjaran for Ramadhan is like HUGE..and when he spoke about it i felt this like warm fuzzy feeling that Ramdhan is here once again..and i thought about last Ramadhan..what have i done since then...so much has changed but i wonder how much have i changed as a muslim..have i done anything to improve my faith in Allah?....is wat i'm doing enough?..i am so absorbed with the material world now...hahha..how much shopping i've done..hahahha..and how can i forget my problems..but the truth is the more pressing issue is whether i have done enough good deeds to bring me to the next stage..i still miss my prayers and i'm far from perfect..yet if it's my time to go...it's not gonna be delayed for even one second..how prepared am i?..yes i am young but haven't there been too many cases of the young dying without any warning...yes yes..reflections on my life.....it makes me feel i dunno..sayu...thinkin about all of it.(wat's the english word for that??) and i also realized something..that the decisions i make from now on has to always be based on whether it will take me a step closer to Allah...insyallah..in light with wat i'm going thru now..all the dilemma with matters of the heart..i came across an excerpt from a line of a surah, that when loosely translated means "with all the hardships that we go through, Allah promises success in the end"...and this is mentioned twice in the surah..so can u imagine the impact of it...subahanallah...so insyallah i will see the light at the end of all of this....
i guess i'm gonna end here...:) gotta do some researching for marketing for dsl..hehehe...happy fasting everyone!!! may we benefit as much as posssible this Ramadhan... :D
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lots and lots of love....
Lin
| 4:24 PM |
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Friday, September 22, 2006
the selengerest thing happened after the test just now..shamiah wanted to solat maghrib before she went home..so me being the good fren..hehehhe..teman her la to pray at the science block..then after taking wudhu we went to the prayer area ..the building itself was scary since it was already in the evening..and memories form the foc night walk came back..then wen we reached te musollah it was dark..then i like dun dare to go in..hahhahhaha..bcos i'm a big scaredy cat..then shamiah also scared to enter the musollah..hahhahahaha..then we were standing outside the stairwell..contemplating on whether we shoud enter the musollah..then one girl stepped out..and i was like "wow she so brave...."...so in the end we decided that we were too chicken so we left :P hahhahaha
then on my way home ..on the pathway to my house..there were two cats....they were like in the middle of the path la..and that was the only path i could use..so iwaited for them to move away..but were they courteous enough to move away??no......they PURPOSELY sat right in the middle....PURPOSELy...so i nicely talk to them la..i told them that i'm afraid of cats and it would be very nice if they could move away so that i could walk..but they still just sat down there...then finally after gesturing for them to move (i figured that they didn't understand me whe i spoke so i decided to gesture for them to move)..one of them decided to run away and the other followed..and i ran past them and didn't look back..phew..i'mm safe and sound at home now :D
the test was ok..i don't think i'll be getting an A. but it was fine...45 mins only . i thot it was gonna be 1hr 30 mins..just realised that i'm gonna have a test once evry wee now..sighs..it's reccess week but still feels the same...meeting tomoro with dsl marketing ppl..not to mention tajwid class and tuition..oh i decided not to buy a notebook cos i found my hello kitty notebook.yayness..i love hello kitty
oh just now i went to zara for a little while..man..i forgot how much i missed that place..i guess now's the autumn/winter collection and so there were rows and rows of beautiful coats..oohhhh..i miss zara so so much...i wish it was my wadrobe..if i could just have a mix of top shop clothes and zara clothes..and accesories for Accesorize and shoes from aldo..ooo..that would be heavenly..is that too much to ask..?it's not even louis vuiton or chanel or marc jacobs...
ok la better stop babbling :P night everyone..tomoro night is terawih night already..so fast!!!
:D adieu
| 11:30 PM |
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today is my test!!!
bla...
wonder wta kind of questions wld pop up..hmm..am feeling xtremely bored altho i'm supposed to study now. :P bad lin...i wanna get a new notebook la..i mean the type where u write down stuff..a nice one would be good
anw i'm blogging cos i'm bored actually i have nothing to blog abt..okie i wanna go eat and bathe now..hehhehehe
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| 10:13 AM |
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Thursday, September 21, 2006
so i finally finally got baby back.evrything is like gone la..everything. they changed the hard disk and all..was quite upset cos i lost like photos and programs and stuff and i have to install everything again. sighs..but then again ..i noe i have to look on the bright side of life...just not in the mood..yet..
today i had tok din's class again..only now i undersatnd wat he has been trying to say for the past two lectures. now then i understand the connection between the malay feudal system in the past and malays now. and also the impct of feudalism on the modernisation of malays (or the lack of it). well just now wen he spoke. he kind of hit a nerve. welll one of the characteristic brought forward from the feudal system values was the lack of willingness to take charge of one's life and to also think lowly of one's ability. u noe like saying "who am i to challenge *insert name of a person of authority here*? i am nothing. i am not half as smart as tht person" and i noe that i always do that to myself. been doing a lot pf reflecting. like i always do. and i thot to myself that i dun belong in nus. i just dun feel like i'm part of it. i just dun have the passion for wat i'm learning for. tis reflection was done after i did my soci essay. i realised that i had a lot of difficulty doin each one of my essays and that i always resort to asking fadzli for help in the end. i just wonder really..where's my aptitude? or should i say?wat am i really really butt-kicking good at? and i realise i dunno..i look around at all the ppl close to me and i can rattle off all their abilities and strong points but i cannot bring yself to do the same about myself. i feel that i'm slowly losing myself academically day by day. by that i mean a lot of the questions i ask are not smart questions. i dun comment well...and i just dun feel like i'm good enough....maybe it's the whole shifting to the arts things. but god help me i hate giving excuses. i noe that i should get off my ass and do smtg abt it. but i dunno where to start and i guess i'm a little overwhelmed.
gosh tomoro's my test. it's a bloody open book test and i just wanna do well la. got a B- for my last soci essay. that one also after i thot that i put in a lot of effort.
oh no mu blog's getting boring...
so anyway..yesterday hazimah messaged me a piece of very good news...155cm is actually equals to 5 ft 2 inc..yayness!!!! i am as tall as mary-kate and asley whichever one..now u noe why they're my style icos..it's bcos thy're short like me but they still look good in their wonderful clothes..yay!! call me kental or watever la but i still love their fashion sense...
anw..my mom message me "i miss u" and i felt so happy that i didn't want to delete the message. it got me smiling for the rest of the day.
ala tomoro got test...i dun like:(
bye la
| 9:15 PM |
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
my com is sent for repair AGAIN!!! It has been barely two monthgs since i bought it and this is the second time that i have to send it for repair..and this time it's more serious ..according to the ibm man..the hard disk is spoilt and they might have to replace it..wat???i never even do anytging to the hard disk..once upon a time..a long long time ago..i didn't even noe wat the hell a hard disk was..boo..so i'm extremely upset cos this means no internet for one whole weekk....no msn, no friendster, no blogging and no ivle..can die !yes i am indeed suffering..and i am not gonna call my laptop "baby" anymore cos in my opinion its' too pampered (*i noe like me)..and it doesn't deserve the unconditional love and sacrifice that i have showered onto him..(yes it's a him)...(figures..)
so while laila is away i better make full use of the time and blog using her lappie..:D
ok so lately i've been busy, busy, busy..not complaining at all ..i love being off my lazy ass..iftar is coming..and i'm doing programs..:P my soci essay is still not done..i'm supposed to like do it now..natural heritage test on friday..nervous as hell and dunno how to study for it..i'm sure shamiah would ace it though...my very very first test in nus and i sure hope like hell that i DO NOT flung it..
anw..i had a lot of niced things to blog abt..but everytime i want to i dun have the oppurtunity..boo..okie gtg finish my essay..dunno wen's tghe nexttime i get to blog again:P
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| 9:53 AM |
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