i have rehearsals today so i probably would be too tired to blog once i get home. blogger archive is screwed up. i dunno why but they wont disply my archives. when i click on it all i get is a blank page. spent one whole hour trying to fix it but to no avail. in the end i just tried to display my archives in weeks instead of months, and voila! it works. but it's like damn messy. oh well...it's just for my reference. i like reading my older entries. i can see the continuity in my life. so to sum up my life in a nutshell after reading my previous entries..it will would be like this

anyway tok busu came over just a while. relatives who have not seen you in a while are great at telling u on whether u have changed or not..and the verdict is.....yes i have put on weight. if weighing scales and pants which have suddenly "shrunk" lie at least i know that long distant relatives don't..aarrrggghh! she says im more chubby. it's true u noe. i wasnt a chubby kid..and now i am a chubby (almost) adult. i hate being insecure about the way i look. but i ammmm.....i hope rehearsals work..if not i'll take up sufiyan's offer of running at botanical gardens..boohoohoo

i dunno why but my left eye is swollen..on a brighter note pak busu will go back to dubai only on sunday so it's okay that i have rehearsals on saturday. i am nervous for the camp on monday im not sure whether the drama games would suit ten year old kids. i dunno where to start for marketing pentas budaya. results would be released shortly. damn it.

trying to distract myself from that fact. went to follow sufiyan to get his hair cut like finally after days and days of persuading.

BEFORE

unhappy with sufiyan's bushy hair

as usual before i go on and do my work i shall blog about my day. was a pretty tiring day today. started bright and not so early at yih for my first meeting. social camp meeting. i like my social camp meetings because the agenda is normally set and taking minutes is much more easier. another plus point is that i found out that yasmine is my ms counter part and we can actually take turns doing our minutes. woohoo.. definitely looking forward to that one.

after that we took a semi-long bus ride down to cck cos my pentas budaya meeting was at lot one macs. abang mokhtar came down. i think it helped cos it sort of gives our commitee a brand new begining. i dunno about the rest but my heart soared. and after hearing about the postpontement in date again this time to 8 august, i am just more motivated to do a good job after hearing that the venue would now be at victoria theatre and that we are gonna get professional help. brings me back to the good ol' madama butterfly days, when we were apprehensive towards sir. "what's this bald man doing here telling us what to do". but after that we grew to love him and words do not describe the amount of theatre experience i gained from that drama alone. and it's not only in acting. it was a holistic experience and i dunno whether sir knows how big an impact he has on my life.

but aniwei my point here is that i do not think that by engaging in professional help, we are shortchanging ourselves. i have been in this situation before. sir did not tell us what to do altho he was our director. even the way i act, he would give me options and scenarios. he asked me questions to challenge myself. and the decisions are on my own. everything was on our own for the drama and we managed to pull it off with sir's guidance. if professional help would enhance the quality of the performance, i think we should go ahead with it. i know that these ppl have been in the business long enough to realise taht power is not what they are out for. i also feel taht there is a need to maintain a certain standard when executing all this events. very crucial details that comes only with experience need to be passed down to us by those who have been in this business for so long. we need to maintain the quality of the the arts scene in singapore and we should learn from the best. yes it would still in the end be a product of nus pbm. it is all our hard work and sweat. and if there is someone giving us a helping hand along the way, i say we accept it graciously.

on a down side. my secretary role has been extended to the role of a marketing officer. yes yes i would gain so much..but marketing is not exaclt my niche. actually i dunno what is. but my point is....I HATE CALLING RANDOM PPL UP!!!!!AAARRGGGHHH!! yes i shall do my best BUT i know it will be taxing..thank goodness i will get help from liza. or god even by mentioning the word "marketing' i can hyperventilate.

ok i think i should move on to talking abt my mext project right about now. muslimah night07. venue is not secured. im not involved in sourcing for venue, but i am very concerned. no venue= no event. and the girls are thinking of coming up wit ha dance and i am not too keen on the idea bcos i cannot commit rehearsal dance an bcos i think i will look funny dancing smtg bollywood.

ok so that is my holidays so far...been busy with project which is a god thing. i dun want to be too stressed or too relaxed. and im trying to strike a balance here. trying to spend more time with family. so friday evenings and sundays are off limits. so i am relaxed that there are no reading s to catch up with and no essays to finish. i must say doing all this is much more fun... (:

me, laila and kanch went to winni's house to just bum around. actually it was supposed to be a slumber party but due to unforseen circumstances (read.. uptight parents), we had to resort to just spending time at one person's house. after getting lost, we really bummed around like nobody's business at winni's place. things that we did include eating(winni's mom cooked a lot), looking at pictures, taking pictures, throwing foam at each other(??), taking turns to wear shrek ears,(but now all of us have our own!!), making fun of each other and watching my best friend's wedding. so of course we had a ton of fun cos i was laughing as hard as i can. hahaha..cant upload fotos..and besides i think i've been uploading to many fotos..

wanted to blog about my mom but im too lazy...maybe tmr..

went for a nice little stroll at esplanade park. ok the fountains look gorgeous. it reminded me of rome..haha..ok i was day dreaming as usual. but i do think it's beautiful. then we sat by singapore river near esplanade. our feet dangling by the river..it was really nice....so thank u sufiyan sulaiman for that... (:

tuition got cancelled again today. was pretty sad cos it just means that my financial situation will not be improving anytime soon. but on the bright side. i got to spend more time with my family. my father wanted to bring us to Carrefour at tampines. only when we reach there did we realise that there was no Carrefour but a Giant there. haha..so my mom flatly refused to enter Giant cos she was "sick of visiting supermarkets duirng the weekends", so we decided to head to ikea instead. like i said before, i dun like the ikea at tampines because i think that it is oversized. but ina is right. it reminds us of shopping overseas. i dunno what it is....perhaps it's because it's family friendly..hmm..perhaps

rushed home just in time for ina's tuition. so while ina was at that, my mom spent some time in my room playing spider solitaire on my lappie. i swear she has been addicted to the game since i dunno when. so i got about cleaning my room while talking to my mom. cleaning and organizing is seriously therapeutic. but smtg i dun understand is i clean my room so aften but it's still so so messy most of the time..oh well i shall savour the moments when it is neat and clean... so i took pictures of my room. cos a picture last longer...

the table beside my bed.
not really a side table,
not really a dresser,
just the table beside my bed

my neatly oraganized teen vogues
(in chronological order of course)
my rows of shoes...
(which i still need more of)
my drawer of bags, pouches and what nots
my study table which i have never used to study.
(haha..it's my holding area for my laundry..
but i've cleaned it up :) )

and last but not least..my most favourite of all...
my extremely comfy bed.
(spot chucky!)