Saturday, October 14, 2006
just got home from school..the test wans't easy..there were a lot of terms and names of species that made me go huh?.."tak pernah dengar"..hahha..but after the test i accomplished something by being brave enough to pray at the freakisly dark musollah at the sciene block..they seriously should put lights there...i have to admit that i solat faster then usual co s i was afraid..after that me and shamiah headed to hazwani for a, i must say, well deserved meal...(i ate chicken rice..yum!!)
so as usual on our way back, we started talking about family, friends and so on and so forth..and the topic turned to criterias for our future husband...hahhah..we came up wit ha list..which i thot was hilarious i was laughing a lot in the train.....hahhaha...so here's the list
1. must be a very good imam
...must have a good voice that makes us melt...hahahah...i also think that this is good cos it encourages us to solat more...hahhahha
2. must live in the east..
shamiah came up with this one. personally i dun mind which part of singapore my future husband come from but it is apparently a big deal to shamiah..it is absolutely absurd and unthinkable to go out with someone from..let's say ...jurong...a complete no-no for shamiah..hahaah
3. must be a leader
this one is a must..i like charismatic man...i noe in sociology i learn that there is really no such thing as teh ideal family. and that the traditional nuclear family need not necessari;y be the "perfect" family. but i wouldn't want a submissive husband...hahahah..it's funny thinking about it..or maybe someone that doesn't noe how to stand up for him and his family..or someone that is not sure about roughly wat he wants to do with his life..but that does not mean that it's a blind dictatorship where i just follow whatever he says..he must of course be diplomatic with his ways..
4. romantic
this is bonus la...if he has everything..he'd perfect and that just doesnt make sensee cos he's probably having an affair right?... but a romantic man is nice..not someone who'd buy you flowers everyday la..i dunno..to me it's the littlest things that counts.
5. must be an orphan
hahhahahahaha..this is so tak baik..but the whole purpose is so that we dun have to deal with mother-in-laws...cos no matter how nice you are, you are bound to have problems with his mother...
6. then we move on to th e physical aspects..for me it's wat else...veiny arms.....hahahhahahahah..fetish..like macho la..hahahahaha
conclusion no.1..we girls were willing to marry someone fugly just as long as they had these criterias
conclusion no. 2...no matter how nice a guy is..big butts and asses are their priorities
conclusion no. 3...boys are stoopid, throw rocks at them
hahhahaahahhaha
good night
adieu
| 12:57 AM |
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Thursday, October 12, 2006
stress level: 8
reasons to be stress......
1. i have a freaking test tomoro..it's mcq and it's open book. easy right? no.........................i am nervous..supposed to visit the raffles museum for the test but i haven't had the time to. so tomorrow before the test itself..i am going to the museum for the visit....ok la not so bad..
2. i have a take home soci essay over the weekend. and this is like my mid-term exam. i'm telling you soci is like giving me very frequent heart attacks..the text book is so thick and i knoe that there is a million and one things to discuss in the essay assingnments..i never oe how to like the question to the stuff that i am learning..which makes me feel very very stupid...
3. my social visit report is due like next next week!! and i haven't started anything!!!
4. my malay studies project is due soon..and my group hasn't met yet..partly my fault cos i got no time
5. my genes report..due a few days after raya..also haven't started..aarrgghh!!!
6. dsl marketing...must complete by the end of next week!!!
looking st this list makes my blood pressure rise..and my heart thump faster....and besides all this..besides all this i still have personal problems to attend to..my never ending personal probs which i have to face every single second, minute and day.. i noe Allah is testin me but sometimes i feel that it's too much for me to take..and i feel like giving up..but the next morning i wake up...and i realise that i'm alive..and i'm a teeny weeny bit stronger...and i'll ask myself.."where did i go wrong?".."have i really changed"..
but somehow at school..i put up a brave front..and act like nothing's wrong...i'm fine...too afraid to tell my frens abt my probs..cos i noe they ran out of words for me..words of advice, words of comfort...and it's ok..i'm sick of going to ppl and talking ...i do talk to mont blanc..he just stares back at me..but when i look in his eyes i noe that he understands....and i love to laugh randomly(now i sound like a mental patient) ...
went for ms iftar yest :)
got briyani....yay! was so happy...but i was late...so i didn't get to eat a lot..luckily they gave me
some to bring home...
| 10:42 PM |
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
venue: central library
time: 0243 waiting for soci lecture to start but too shagged to study for my nat heritage test on friday
okie i got a b- again for soci essay there is an 80% chnace that i am not going to major in soci. how sad and you noe wat?....i dunno what i should major in...malay studies? eerrggh tok din...social work? dry...and that's the only 2 other exposure mods that i am taking...so i shall take psych and see if i can make ..heard that it's quite sciencey..so maybe i'd do ok...
verdict: still looking for my passion in nus
love life: bad...very bad...but then again it's good that it's this way..cos i'm the sort of person who doesnt like pressure..so i'm kinda running away now and i will turn to other things..and in this case it is school..how ironic..but hey i'm good :D
verdict: watever will be will be.....i cannot be bothered..if i remain single thruout my life pun takper la...all i need is plenty of money and my faith..only one probelm: no one to take care of me when i'm older..okie will be extra nice to my future nieces and nephews and also look at good old folks homes in spore...
family: havent seen much of my family lately..will drop by a call to my mom later..but i dread it cos she doesn't talk to me, she interrogates...and i just wanna talk you noe..like"how are you? how's school?" and stuff..teh reason why i havent seen much of family is that i cum home late and my parents are not home cos they're at terawih...when they come back i'm in my room cos i noe tt i'll get nagged about household chores..and it's stressful cos i'm dead tired at the end of the day and i just wanna rest....and i also get negged for being online..it's honestly one of the few entertainmenti have..
friendships: more aquaintences than friends,,but it's fine..i'm kinda in the mood where i like being alone and being around too many people maake me very grumpy..in between breaks i'll hang out with laila and fazzy..but i've been seeing less of laila lately..maybe she's avoinding me...maybe..i'll ask her later
i need to watch a movie or buy something..maybe i'll find smtg to get on sat..i wanna watch SCOOP..heard that it's nice..anw..i got a take home soci essay for an exam this wek and i'm like nervous...bcos of all the B- i've been geting...oo and i still have my tuitions..not as enthusiastic as before but hey i dread the journey more than thebtuition itself...
self evaluation mf myself: i dunno whether i've really changed as a person but i noe the areas that i have changed in..i am more more proactive as compared to before..a teeny weeny bit braver...and i noe wat i want in life (well roughly la)..oo and i'm more independent..i can walk ard school alone w/o feeling weird..hahhahaha...but i've also become intellectually slower..boo...and more materialistic..i noe it's bad but i like.
just realised tt this entry has no purpose..hhahah
ok la
adieu
| 2:48 PM |
Adieu.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
THREE NAMES I GO BY:
1. lin
2. adlina
3. Nora (don't ask me y cos i dunno either)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. right now - primadolla
2. anilda
3. i cant think of a third one
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my eyes..they scare ppl (i've had strangers come up to me to ask me abt my scary eyes)
2. my size (cos it's convenient for me to squeeze into crowded mrt trains)
3. i cant think!!aarrgghh!
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. this is easy..my teeth..
2. my tembamness..aka chubbiness
3. my height cos ppl treat me like a small girl
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. malay ...duh.
.2. chinese
3. my mom saya arab..i think she tipu me..but it sounds nice la..hahhahaha
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
(besides God and Judgement Day and the usual)
1. CATS!! nuff said
2. the dark. my sister still teman me to the toilet
3. failure
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my PINK handphone
2. make up (rule of thumb dun leave home w/o it)
3. at least one matching accesory
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Jason Mraz (i think i'm in love)
2. Gavin Deraw
3. michael buble :)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. too many i cannot choose
THREE BOOKS YOU ARE CURRENTLY READING / GOING TO READ:
1. sociology, your compass for a new world
2. angels and demons
3. this is not a book..but i read teen vogue a lot..it's a staple
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. understanding
2. love ..the sort that u cannot eat, cannot sleep..and all u think of is him
3. shared interests
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. i run 2.4 in 18 mins
2. i am dyslexic
3. i am a fashion freak
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. veiny arms!!
2. pleasant looking face
3. nice butt..hahahahha..this is not tru..i dun look ppl's at asses at all
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. reading
2. ec-ing
3. shoppingg(goes without saying)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. go for a holiday
2. to be on task
3. to find the meaning and purpose of my existence
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. paedatrician
2. stylist
3. interior designer
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. venice
2.actually anywhere in europe..tuscanny would be nice
3. i wanna go to the places in singapore that no one goes to
THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE :
1. hahha..Azizul Hakim...
2. sabillah
3. and...nora..hahaha
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. travel across europe
2. travel across europe with the man i love
3. fine the man i love first..hahahha
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i'm practical (sometimes)
2. i have an ego
3. when i'm stressed i dun deal with it..i like to take a break
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK:
1. shopping!
2. i dun think i'm fat, but i am very critical of my physical attributes
3. i run like a girl
THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. mm..can't remember..the guy from prison break
2. james marsden
3. ...tak ingat la
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| 12:02 AM |
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
i even found a tok din lookalike..hee
we were both afraid to touch the bamboo shark...:s
a pretty orange fishie :0)
me very happy to be at underwater world
today me and shamiah headed to underwater world after my tuition..for our national heritage of singapore module..i was quite excited as i have not stepped into sentosa for about 6 years now..i still remember the last time i went was in sec 2..or was it sec 1..well aniwei i went to asian village with my class..i think asian village doesnt even exist now and not only that..the monorail is like gone...i still remember asking someone about the monorail and getting a weird stare from him/her..haiyah..how i noe?..I'm not cool wat...i don't go sentosa to sun tan...i cannot wear bikini wat....pepople will run away.. :P but aniwei sentosa is very diff now..duh..everything is like manicured..but i only went to underwaterworld..and even then it's more for studying the subtidal habitat...
aniwei the first thinig that greeted me at the entrance of the underwater world was actually the touching pool..(damn the name sounds wrong)..it's where you can dip your hands in this like tank and touch the animals inside..actually i expected it to be like the Sydney aquarium i went to..where the animals we get to touch are things like starfishes, sea cucumbers, sea urchins and so on and so forth..but here you get to touch "real" animals like bamboo sharks, stingray (that wont sting you) and even puffer fish...at first i was afraid..but i told shamiah that i was not leaving the place until i touched the shark which i eventually did..in the pic is actually this boy that i made friends with while i was at the touching pool...when i asked him for his name he said that he forgot..how sad..but he was really nice..and while we were there we talked about "finding nemo"..and other stuff..he said that the puffer fish was nemo's friend..which is kind of true..he was afraid to touch the shark too..like me..and he cannot reach the tank also..so sad..but he's cute so i took a picture with him..i dunno why he was lookin at me in the pic..
so as i moved along and look at the fishes i was so fascinated..i mean these are the species which are hidden away from us..and therefore sometimes we "forget" to conserve them..seriously some of the species look like they were from outer space.there were these crabs called giant japanese spider crabs which were like huge la..and also i must say yummy looking..hee..i was just imagining the amount of flesh i could get from it..hehehe...(maklumlah puasa)..a lot of the fishes made me hungry to...they were huge la..i was a bit disappointed with the highlight of the whole trip..which was you noe the underwater world itself..i expected to see like an original singapore subtidal habitat..but it was just a tank painted blue..with corals stratigically placed here and there..i must say that soem of the corals look fake...but overall i enjoyed my visit and treated myself to ben and jerrrys that i bought...yummy..unfortunately by the time i reached home it melted.. boo
today i felt better..i really hope that things would change...
| 10:49 PM |
Adieu.
i even found a tok din lookalike..hee
a pretty orange fishie :0)
me very happy to be at underwater world
