i am frustrated. i am goin to reiterate this point once again. i don't need a man. i am happy the way i am. i do not feel that having a partner will complete me. i have a good support system and making me making this statement is not a sigh of arrogance, ignorance or to express the sudden bout of feminist sentiment in me. i am just fed up. i do feel that my life is complete. i am whole. i am not saying that i am rejecting the notion of finding a boyfriend or rejecting someone suitable that comes along. I am just saying that I am not looking. Good if He decides to turn up on my doorstep, and it's ok if he's late or never coming. i can manage on my own. maybe i do experience pangs of loneliness here and there and moments where i just long to be in the arms of that SOMEONE. but you know what, i think i'll get over it. and if i'm feeling that way, i'm probably just PMSing. i feel trapped in this cycle. yet determined to change its course. determine to make it work this time around and unsure whether it would end up just like the last time. i dunno what's keeping me going. i dunno why im listening to that little part in my heart. i dunno why i'm taking in all the pain. but i noe that this time it would be different in the sense that i would not involve others, whom i'm very sure are just puzzled about what the hell i am doing. i do. feel that way that is. when i stand back and analyze things. i ask myself why? what makes me think that it'd work this time round. but yet I'm here trying for the umpteenth time.

ignore previous entry which was onviously written in oure angst in the wee hours of the morning when i stumbled upon smtg hurtful. oh well it AlMOST spoiled my morning cos it made me late for my tutorial, which is not so good cos i had presentation in the morning..but thankfully..by a miracle i tell u i was only like 3 minutes late even thought i left house twenty minutes later then when i was supposed to and for that..Alhamdulillah..

the presentation went well....and for that i'm thankful for my group mates diyanah and hanafee...i think we exhausted all the points of discussion during our short skit, although i must say i felt a little bit unsure about our script before that. ok i gotta be thankful that there were some parts of our presentation where we didnt realise that we were going against the dominat discourse, but we were..hehhe..accidental genius moments. aren't we just so thankful for them.

today we had to submit our grp project for sociology of family. ok i must admit i'm a bit afraid of the group evaluation part. i did my part, but it just wasnt used in the final product and i just feel very insecure about the evaluation that will be given by my fellow members..i really hope that it turns out ok. oh please...

oh then during family lecture ... i thought i lost my favourite phone pouch ... then i was like very upset when i bongkar my bag and i couldnt find it. and so very sadly i solat zuhur...but after that i was like telling myself that i should just the Lost And Found..and guess what?! i found it! hehehehhe..omg. I was so so thankful la. Amin Amin Amin Amin..heheheheh...ya i was so happy!

Abang Khairul's birthday tomoro..so abang hakim had a suggestion that we meet up to kinda celebrate. so dinner at Macs and chilling out at Cafe LeCaire..which was fun (: a nice kind of fun. ya la. u can tell from the pics ....