i think amidst this exam fever..i am the only crazy one who's blogging like crazy. going out like my exams is not next week. -_-

sighs...i am so not in the kanchiong exam mood which is bad cos the kiasu mood makes me feel prepared for my exams.

oh do you noe the donut factory? i've heard a lot about it but the queue is like super long. the other day me and sufiyan were queuing for them for about like ten minutes when the guy told us that by the time we got to the counter, he cant guarantee that there will be any donuts left..scho scahd oni..so we left empty handed..(but sufiyan bought me a very nice bag that day..*grinz*) so i went home and like googled for it..ppl wait for like 2 and a half hours for these stuff...i really wanna noe what's so good about them....but i dun want to wait..well not for two and a half hours..oh well maybe when the phase dies off then maybe i'd get a taste of it..as for now i shall only look at pictures of them....scho schad oni....

but there is something that tastes so good and doesnt require any queueing at all!!! and this is like a teeny weeny piece of heaven sent down in a cup..Godiva Dark chocolate Decadance....:p oohlala.....................it's expensive but it makes it all okay that i cant drink from starbucks..(:

today i eat until i cant eat anymore..which is bad...ikut nafsu...masyallah. went for dinner with liyana, haikel and sufiyan. good stuff....see la im suh a naughty girl! I NEED TO STUDY!!!! i shall do my timetable now!!!! aaarrggghh!!!

motivation: HONOURS (smart girls get everything in life!)

my very own list of what i want to do after my exams: -

1. have my proper sleepover
2. spend a day retail therapying. start with vivo city and then head down to far east to get my cheap shoes. inspiration: pastel colours for spring/summer. stores to look out for: FOX, Forver 21....and oh i need more skirts!
3. watch a movie ( a proper one, not a lousy one just because the timing is right)
4. eat donuts from donut factory
5. find a job that pays well
6. do a kick ass job in all my events
7. EC with the lailas..I MISS THEM!
8. spend one whole day at a book store and learn to not be so simple minded and bimbo. note: learn that there is more to life than shopping
9. do more housework. domesticate myself a teeny weeny bit.
10. oragnize my room and make it so pretty than take pictures of it and put it up on my blog.

ps. sufiyan..i want my fotos! cepat sikit eh..

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hi my name is mont blanc. and today, my mommy said that i could blog on her behalf cos she is so busy studying (yeah right...) anyway i am a kitten. and i am very cute, i noe so because ppl cant stop telling me how cute i am. and perhaps because i have good genes thanks to mommy. so today i decided to blog about my day at school.

we took the bus from the Clementi. it was a bumpy ride and i had to ride on my mommy's bag. unfortunately i do not have claws and could not grip on to her bag. but i got to nus safe and sound.
we had breakfast at MacDonalds with my mommy's friends, uncle wan, uncle fazzy and aunt maly. we were very happy. however i was only allowed to take on bite of the burger, cos my mouth wasnt big enough plus i felt that i was growing fat...

here's a picture of my buncit stomach. im not very proud of it and i've tried doing more sit ups. but it's not helping...

after that i helped do some work. it was very difficult trying to type...i was too far from the screen and i couldnt see...

so i decided to take a closer look.. but my eyes hurt after a while..

i thot writing down notes was much much easier..but it was difficult writing in english. i'm better at CAT...

i helped photocopy some notes and was almost flattened by the big machine. but dun worry i'm okay. the lights were very bright and i had to shut my eyes sometimes.

then it was time to go home and i decided to let aunt hudee rest and drive her car. it was difficult to navigate the car, but i managed to get everbody safe and sound in their homes..

and that was how i spent my day...this a family potrait (:

i hope evrybody else had a good day too...im tired and i want my kitten nap

"meow meow meow"

tht's cat for goddbye btw...

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one day there was a fairy princess who wanted to help ppl who were studying for their exams...she magically made delicious jelly beans appear out of thin air.
the people were very happy and thanked the fairy princess for sending to them yummy jelly beans to help them study..
then a small sepet monster came and threatened to disrupt peace amongst the ppl who were going to sit for their exams by spoilling the CAP score..he took awak the fairy princess's wand and hit her beautiful head with her wand.
The fairy princess had a wonderful idea. she shared some yummy jelly beans will the EVIL CAP spoilier.. the fairy princess go back her wand and they all lived happily ever after..

ps. i really really really really really really really need to start studying..the EVIL CAP spoiler is gonna strike again if i dun :(

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went to meet sufiyan after school today. it went well. thank goodness.....i guess we've been through so so much. for the past three years or so i've experienced my highest and my lows with him. i've seen every part of his character. good, bad, pretty ugly. and he the same with me. i've given up on him a million and one times. it's like this cycle. which i dun noe whether will end well or badly. but i guess that's just us. sometimes i feel tat there's really no hope. sometimes i feel otherwise. i feel a lot of things when i'm around him. we've been through so much, sometimes i feel too much. i dun now where we're heading to next. maybe i'll experience another breakdown again and fall out with him. maybe it wont. i honestly and sincerely dunno. i'm always at the edge of my seat, that's for sure. but i'll take all the moments as they come.

so thank you for tonight. i'll keep this one close to me.


ps. firah..i took the first picture specially for you..hehehe


all the best studying everyone. :)

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probably our last time having dinner together after arab class..how sad. no more attempting to speak arab..laughing my head off while listening to everybody speak arab..and me failing miserably everytime i try. hahha..good company, good food...what more could i ask for. just now i fell asleep during arab class..i think it's the McSpicy that i ate before heading to class..ya must be that..but that's not the selenger part. the selenger part was when i woke up to find the whole of my left sleeve blotched with purple ink from my highlighter. i seriously dunno how i managed to do that when i was asleep, but i did. and i'm not talking about small teeny weeny splotches here and there..the whole sleeve was practically purple and im not exagerating. *slaps forehead*. will i ever grow out of my selenger phase. i have a feeling i wont. -_-

started a teeny weeny bit on my revision just now. i did my malay studies. i am so so afraid of exams because i have not been fairing well lately. i wish that it didnt have this effect of me. i wish i could study for the love of knowledge. but then again..i wish for many things.

oh shucks i clipped my fingernails a tad to short and they hurt now.

i told my self to blog smtg about elitism today, but i kinda forgot what i wanted to blog about..haha..oh well it was after my experience at he bengkel on sunday. i'm just very disappointed with the image that JC kids are protraying, esp those in the elite JCs. (btw this is an extremely sweeping statement) sometimes i feel that they think that they are too good and it makes me sick. especially the boys. i have to agree, back in jc, i think i've met boys with the worst manners ever. it was a nice change when i entered NUS. i guess NS really does a lot. sometimes i just feel so frustrated with this ppl taht i wish that they realise what jerks they are. trying to act cool and all. i just wish that there was smtg i could do to like get back at them..hmmpppphh..wonder where all tis rage is coming from. perhaps it's from suffering as a wallpaper back in jc. oh well..what's done is done. i met some of the greatest ppl on earth whole doing my jc years and if it's not for them, i dunno whether i'll every go thru it.

there's smtg that i wanna blog about that i totally forgot..this is what happens when i dun bring my lappie to school and cant instantaneously blog about what i feel. oh well i guess i'll stop here i really cant remember..tomoro's my practical rehearsal. im nervous taht we dun do well cos i screwed my theatre studies test big time. ahh..i remembered what i want to blog about...my malay studies paper which i handed it yesterday. it was a whole load of crap. i hate bieng such a worry wart. it does not help me at all..

i shall shuddup now

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me and sham..really proud of our reception table (:

these people really like to serve nasi ayam penyet..look at how happy they are (:

I finally, finally found someone to camhore with...woohoo!

Farhanah broke her tag after that..hahhahah..so cute la

us again...

more us..i think i make a very good buruk face..

the team..not everybody..burthe colour scheme is nice right?

• i am dead tired. i've never felt as if i'm gonna drop down dead anytime before until now.
• today was pentas budaya bengkel day. and it was all messed up. as in i think the insturctors were super good. but they were a lot of kengejotans along the way. i cant help but feel that i have attributed to this. being the secretary, i think i have been inefficient in keeping the members up to date with stuff. i mean i do put up the datelines and stuff.but perhaps people do not respond to that and there needs to be another angle to which i get the commitee's attention. perhaps i should be more in your face and agressive like Ain. She gets the work done each and everytime and is an efficient leader. i think that Husni needs more support from ppl like me. and i have not being doing the job efficiently. perhaps i'm exhausted from all tht's been going on. i am. but i feel that it is not excuse. i put my commitment in this project and it is my reponsibility to see it thru. personal problems aside. honestly, i do feel disappointed with myself. Sometimes i feel that my presence alone is no use. what's the use of being there all the time but not contributing. a productive non-existant member would be better. i feel that my role is not that huge and tht makes it worst the fact that im not putting in my everything.
• i have a phobia of the other gender. and im dead serious.
• i have a bigger phobia of relationships
• i cant continue on my essay until i like pour my heart out today.
• this feels like the peak of it all and it's not even my exams.
• I HAVEN'T FINISHED MY ESSAY!!!! and im not inspired to continue.
• I am so sick of chicken rice. i had it for all my meals today. dinner and supper incuded.
• i feel that no matter how much shit i go thru, there are always others who are suffering more that I am and Allah have even bigger tests for them. i bet what im going thru is like peanuts to someone in Africa suffering from AIDS.
• i am worried about my theatre studies practical. very worried.
• i am more worried for my upcoming exams.
• i wish energy was sold in a can.
• i feel proud of myself and the begining of this sem because of my efficiency but somhow along the way i lost my steam. so im still working towards the whole idea of perseverence.
• went to visit Tok Busu at the hospital today. i really pity him and admire the Nek Busu's strength as a woman. i realise that for inspirations in life i am so lucky that i really do not need to look far.
• i tink Zubir Abdullah is seriously the Lelaki Melayu Terakhir. He is everything a man should be.
• i went to the bengkel just expecting to do my job as a committee member not expecting it to be an enriching experience. But it truly was. I now realise that i know so little of my own culture. and i travel so far to know about others. It makes me more semangat about being Malay. we've been surrounded by so much negativities about being malay so much so that there are so many people who dun admit to being malay. "oh i'm half boyanese, Arab, javanese, bugis, etc" when it actual fact you are MALAY! hell my own grandmother is chinese but essentially my heart is malay and so is so many people out there who do not admit that they are. We were in fact raised as Malays. Tell me how much of the Arab/Bugis/Javanese culture do you really noe and practise.
• i am sick of the fact that when it comes to protecting the culture and so on it will always be the same small pool of people. This is what i have been going thru since forever and i have a feeling that it will continue to my working life.
• i think women are being done great injustice in the word today.
• it's sad that i've seen the un-importance of getting married.
• i love Hasif's new hairstyle, he even showed me some of his cheerleading moves just now..haha..i love that boy.
• i really really hope that i become better at handling my whole life in terms of self-descipline (honesly i have none) and efficiency and really learn from my mistakes in life and hopefully touch the life's of others too. directly and indirectly.
• ok i think that's about all i have to rant for today. man this feels good. I've been keeping it inside itching to let it all out since the start of the day.

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