Friday, March 02, 2007

Oh smiley lion......

i dunno why...maybe it's the time of the month...haha...but i am so drawn to all this cutesy, oh-to-sweet nothings that is giving me a toothache.. :P oh well..no harm

so my psych test is over..woohoo... but it's not the end..there is still the results. sighs. better get my hello kitty tissues ready again. =^..^=

speaking of hello kitty tissue, the last time i used it was around this time last year, when i received my "A" levels results last year. sighs. i noe what's done is done. but so far all my efforts of proving myself academically has just left me falling flat on my face. i cant even remember the last time i tasted academic success.

anyhoos. yesterday was a time of reflection. sometimes we underestimate the power of reflection. we go through life blindly without stopping to think. "what if i am gone from the face of this earth tomorrow?"..what have i done to make this world a better place (improve the economy with my shopping?)..what is my purpose on this earth? all this stuff i'm doing..izzit enough? what the hell is my purpose in life?

i'm just feeling very insecure about who i am these days. i feel that there is no like solid "proof" of my qualities. like u noe how smart ppl have their grades to show, talented ppl have their medals. and what do i have? ok maybe i'm nice. but where will that get me? and is that even valued in the world today?maybe i dun need to prove to ppl anything. i guess i just need to prove to myself something.

i've been searching for a long long time. i guess my spirits are running a bit low. i'm just trying to make all this seem so easy.

sighs. another burnt weekend.

tmr's schedule
ngaji.....tuition....meeting :(

i have no life..

plus i have these things to complete
1) survey for my methods module
2) first draft of family essay
3) preparation for malay studies presentation
4) theatre studies thingy bejingy
5)psych paper (by next friday!)
6) pentas budaya minutes
7) schools for cakap petah

-_-

down in the dumps yet again
adieu

question of the day: izzit possible to help someone that does not want to help himself?

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Adieu.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Please Pray for thy
am having psych test this friday and i am really unprepared. no not the nus type of unprepared where it means that u havent read thru you your readings ten millions times. but as in really honestly unprepared. havent been keeping up with readings. i noe i'm so gnna die. as if my CAP score cannot be worst off. i can kiss that honours bye bye. -__-. sometimes i really wonder why i am so dumb.

anyhoos. i find the lyrics of this song damn meaningful. it's the most played song in my hp since i have no ipod or mp3.

here goes..

i would like to dedicate tis song to....

whoever la...

you're my sugar pop hunny bum
humpy yumpy yumkin
you're my sweety pie

you're my cuppy cake, gum dwops
schnoogums boogums, you're
the apple of my eye
and i love you so
and i want you to noe
that i'll always be right here

and i loooooooove to sing
this sooooooooong to you
because you are so deeeeeeeeeeear..

:)

adieu

| 9:48 PM |

Adieu.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

The heart has its reasons that the reason knows not of
- Blaise Pascal, Pensees, Section IV, No. 277

ms samosir screened "Stage Beauty" for us to watch today. i realised how much i love the shakespearean era. ok i admit that i'm at lost when it comes to deciphering what they are trying to say. but it just sounds beautiful and when you actually understand, it sounds more beautiful. anw the show had claire danes as the lead. haha. she must love shakespeare as much as i do. her acting reminded me of the time when she was in Romeo and Juliet. Has been a long time since i felt this rush of emotions when watching something. (also becaus eit focused on acting and i realised how much i missed acting :( ) It's a pity that i couldnt watch the whole thing. Keep telling myself that i'll watch it when i'm less busy. haha. wat a joke. that would be after i get through my mountain of work. i guess two months would do. hahaha..oh well...it was just one of those movies that make you warm and fuzzy all over and wish that prince charming would just come and sweep me off my feet. ok snap! back to reality!

today i had my arab class. i'm a bit lost cos i skip last week's session to finish my family essay. and the mudareez was speaking so quickly today so it was difficult to catch up. but i did learn the word "ayna" which means where..hahha..oh well i cant wait to visit pak busu again so that i can practise my arab with hot arab guys. what motivation! hahaha...

For my reserch methods mods, i'm doing mate selection for nus malay female undergards. haha. was doing a bit of reading about mate selection, basically about what people look out when finding their othe half. Some stuff that i came across before include the similarity model, which basically explain how an individual chooses his/her mate based on similar interests, characteristics, etc. oh well it's self-explanatory. Then there is the equity model and so on and so forth. But the one that caught my attention is the poverty model. sighs. well the rest of the models give possible criterias that ppl look out for when looking for "the one". Interestingly the poverty model explain how sometimes we have no choice. ie. we cannot choose who we want beacuse we do not have the luxury todo so. hence, we accept the first serious prospect that come along. ie. i chose him because he chose me. :P oh well. poverty model also can la.

haha..

have a good night everyone. back to pentas budaya minutes

Adieu

| 10:19 PM |

Adieu.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Terokers

This is my favourite pic

Juniors who came down to help.. (:

Laila's poster was a success!

hahaha

she grabbed me to be in this pic..hahhaha..sighs..i dun think i can work with anybody else

instructions are very very impt....

Fazzy came despite his broken arm :)

Teroka Seni

Alhamdulillah....

it was a success....it was because of God's grace that everything went well..and also the respective members..who each put in their all in order to make this event a success.and for that i'm thankful....i'm glad that it all turned out well in the end..despite the ups and downs...

A very special thankyou to Shamiah....my other half in tis project..without whom i would not be even in this thing..hahhaha..wouldnt do this with anybody else

i was just thinking thru my life in nus...and something striked me...since being here, i've always thot that i should seize all this oopurtunity at hand.. and i admit..i am a bit tired with all these activities..then i look at all this other super ppl..who seem to be able to manege everything without much difficulty..and i realised that i should be thankful for my capabilities..there would always be ppl who are more "capable" than i am..however..i overlooked one impt factor..and that is sacrifice...sometimes we forget that to achieve success there are lots of sacrifices to be made..social life, family life, etc.. i think that u have to make sacrifices all the time...it just depends on whether u are aware or not aware of teh sacrifices that u are making and the nature of ur sacrifice. i for one, find it difficult to sacrifice my social life (whatever little i have) and most importantly my family life...therefore my plan for success is till in progress..but i think it's ok for it to be that way for now :)

Adieu

so 1 down...2 more to go..and i noe tt i cannot be complacent..but i'll try my utmost best to make penats budaya and cakap petah run smoothly...

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Adieu.