Saturday, September 30, 2006

today..someone left me a friendster testimonial..about love..i dun noe him personally but i just thot tat his views were refreshing...here goes...(it's very long)

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we LoVe we fail to recognize & appreciate the people who LoVe us. We miss out on so many beautiful things & simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by ourown selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds & not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you LoVe but the man who LoVes you more. The best LoVers are those who are capable of LoVing from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel theLoVe deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop LoVing, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, & anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength &weaken your faith & never allow pain to disheartenyou, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearingit. You may found peace in just LoVing someone froma distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace & happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice & beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives & eventually consumes our thoughts & actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed & be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded& we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget someone you LoVe. What you need to learn is how to accept theverdict of reality without being bitter or sorry foryourself.Believe me; you would be better off giving that dedication & LoVe to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible & let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today,it means that someone better is coming tomorrow : If you lose LoVe that doesn't mean that you failed in LoVe.Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt & the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday & LoVe will find its way back to you & when it does, pray that it may be the LoVe that will stay & last a lifetime.

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Friday, September 29, 2006

just found a perfume t i actualli like and does not makes me have a headsche..it's called miss dior cherie...i knew about it for quite some time now..the bottle is really cute and girly..i've looked around but cant seem to find a sample of it so just now while i was walking at bugis i found a sample of it so i decided to spray some on and it smells great..i'm not a great fan of perfume but this one smells flirty and fun..only problem is that it quite ex..even at lucky plaza i think a small bottle costs like 80 bucks..oo ex for me...so for now i'll just pop down at the dior counter and spray some on myself..hahha..so sengket (i learn from fadzli)

anw..new perfumes have popped up lately i decided to make a list of perfumes which i think have very good and beautiful advertisments

1. Miss Dior Cherie
absolutely love the bottly..very classy
2. princess by vera wang
i love the bottle..it's very princessy yet it's not like too sweet that you wanna throw up. i really love the concept.
3. the new perfume by hillary duff (i have no idea wat it's called)
when every star out there is going for the girly approach. the bottle of this perfume is really refreshing. it 's different..somehow more mature, yet not grandma mature. Duff mentoned that her inspiration was the perfume bottles found on her grandma's dresser. i think she and the prodution team did a good job with the marketing of this perfume.
4. lovely by sarah jessica parker
this is not a biased opinion whatsoever altho i do adore SJP's dress sense. she's really smtg..but anw i just love the bottle for her perfume. wen i saw her on oprah promoting thgis perfume, i could see how sincere she was in creating this perfume(she was so excited that her she accidentally flung her shoe off from her foot :]), i guess that 's wat makes it special. you should visit the official website for the perfume, it's gorgeous..i love the concept. actually i wanted to have the sort of the same thing for my blog, but i dunno how to do..cos i'm IT illiterate..hee..

so anw went to buka at amirah's grill today with sufiyan..the food and ambience is great..it's really comfy..it's like breaking your fast at somebody's home..met some nus ppl..i found out tt there was some meeting going on there..but anw i had fun..we popped down at the bazaar which was surprisingly not packed and upbeat..i hope it's a good sign..like maybe the rest are at home or a the mosque terawihing..haha..

oo..there's a selenger pic of me..hee..thanks for the flowers sufiyan...(wow the gap between my teeth is really apparent..i think it's increasing..so if u guys have money..pls donate to the LIn Needs Braces Fund..teehee...)

ooo..found a really cool new shop..cant believe i didnt now about it before this and i call myself a shopping expert..it's called diva.and it sells the coolest accesories..not wat everybody at orchard road is wearing but wat everybody in hollywood is wearing (am i making sense?)..but the best part is tt it doesn't burn a hole in your pocket..yayness..i bought myself a ring..it looks like mentos but it's nice and cheap..i like.tee hee..

tried to look for my vintage dress at bugis but met with little success..the one i liked was expensive and i wanted to get smtg long sleeved..plus i wanted smtg that was not of a floral motive cos it's so common nowadays..not an easy task..so anw..i dunno whether ppl still remeber the time iwanted to buy this red top which the sales girl sold to another person..no?..ah nevermind..point is up till now i cannot stop thinking bout the top and still haven't found anything quite like it..sad no?...sighs.. aper nak buat dah bukan jodoh..

ok la it's late and i have tuition early tomoro.sighs..
adieu

| 10:38 PM |

Adieu.

yesterday was an extremely long day..i finally made my way down to the amk family service centre at senkang for my social service visit..hmm..was an eye-opening experience for me..as i am aware tt i lead an extremely sheltered life..i sometimes forget that "real" problems do exist.like conflicts within the family that gets out of hand and therefore requires tt family to seek help from the outside...i sincerely feel that there is nothing wrong with seeking help from outside the family wen the situation calls for it..as in when there is no way out..in fact i think it is the best solution to seek professional help..i guess living in a conservative society..there's always this need to keep family problems within the family itself and not to reveal it to stranggers...

i guess this applies to my family as well..my mom listens on to her friend's family woes but she never ever ever told anyone about our family woes..she lives by the rule that says "you can listen to others but never tell others about your problems. especially family problems." in fact she believes that even personal problems should be kept to oneself and if there is really a need to talk to someone..u should only talk to someone in the family ie. her.... her ratonale for all tis is tt family is forever but friends come and go and you might never noe when they will use the information against you..i guess it's kinda sad wen my mom says smtg like tt..yes i do realise that it's a dog eat dog world out there..but i guess i can't keep problems to myself... and as much as i love my mom and tell her about a lot of things happening in my life..there are some information..tt i just simply cannot tell my mom bcos i do not think tt she'll understand or even try to understand. i guess i am willing to take the risk of myself being turned back on bcos i just need somebody to talk to once in a while..yet when i look at those i expose my deepest darkest secrets to...i realise that they are as good as family..and maybe at the end of the day i am following wat my mum told me about only trusting family

| 1:11 PM |

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

just now during terawih i met the cutest guy ever...enjoy the pics

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

today was my official official holiday....aaa...so nice la..wake up late..rolled around in bed..i flattened chucky..(so kesian, but dun worry he's ok) look at him..he's fine...haha

i spent the whole day on the internet altho i had a lot of things to do..it was so so addictive.. there's so much things to do actually...and in the end satu kerja pun tak buat..sighs..i wasted on whole day..i was supposed to have tuition, the it was cancelled last minute.. so ok la..at least can terawih

anw..i'm gonna ramble a bit about love...hmmm...i believe that love is all about taking time..but how do u noe if u have to speed up or grab the oppurtunity at hand...will THE ON always wait for u..or will he move on if u do not respond to his wooing..

"it's better to have loved and lost then to have never love before"

sighs..why am i so emo nowadaes..i contemplate about love so much when there's so many pressing issues at hand..like my academic life..well in a way i am emo about that..i'm questioning whether i belong in nus..or whether this is just a route that i always thought i should take...am i apt for the challenge at hand..dun get me wrong i am having fun..but when i reflect back to my passion...i realise that it's not academic at all..in fact i dun even noe my passion..i just noe tat i like fashion and i like to shop..haha..but tat's not much is it..i want to do something i absolutely love in the future..or is that a bad idea cos i'd be too absorbed with work and actually forget everything else..yes that is extremmely possible...hmmm...once upon a time my dream was to marry my prince charming and live happily ever after.that's all..i am really a simple person..i realise that i dun dream big..which is a problem..cos dreaming big is very important for someone who wants to achieve success....ppl in university are high achievers..they wanna be the next Bill Gates, Donald Trump, etc..but me?...i wanna be a good wife and mother..hahaha..i sound like a kampung girl..(no offence to any kampung girls out there, just to prove that my dreams and aspiration is not in line with wat ppl in my generation want)..

anw..as u might notice my thots are not even organized anymore..everything's just one huge mess..and i am changing..i can feel it..i used to be so anal..but now i'm not the neat freak i was before..my rooms is rarely as neat as a pin as it was before..and i do not adhere strictly to the schedule that i set myself..i am definitely less disciplined now..which makes me feel extremely irrritated with myself...i used to be afraid..but i'm getting braver..(if not very brave, it's a lot braver then the old me)..i'm changing! and i dunno if it's a good thing..i feel like i've lost a part of the real me and i feel sad..but they said that change is always good and i am a strong believer in "there's a reason for everyhing"..

hmmm..yup tt's all for now..it's getting late..good night everyone ..
adieu

| 11:43 PM |

Adieu.

so i just came back from the airport..am extremely tired...was out from morning..as usual my selenger moments start bright and early..

my mom woke me up with a phonecall...

mama: dah bangun ke blom
me: (just woke up but tried to sound as if i've been awake for ver long)(failed miserably) err...dah..tengah siap ni (nampak sah bedek)
mama: masyallah...blom bangun lagi (mama noes me too well)
me: erm..nak bangun la ni
mama: pukol brapa pergi skolah
me: oh nak pergi lah ni (nampak sah bedek 2 times)
mama: ok la, bye

when i look at the time i realised that it was already 0915..and i was supposed to meet laila k at clementi at 10..i was so so late la..so i told laila k that she better go ahead first..sighs

then at the mrt station, the man working there stop me bcos i was using teh my students ez-link card...it wasn't my fault la..i already made my tertiary ez-link card just that it's not ready..not my fault wat..am too lazy to elaborate wat happened..but anw to cut a long story short i was pissed tht he spoiled my morning..bcos it ultimately spoils my day...boo

so i was late..sighs..cannot meet laila..met fadzli late..was supposed to meet him at yih..but he already go library..so sat in the library to do admin stuff..then went to yih...so selnger i go there to collect my ez-link..at first i went to the wrong place..haha..then wen i went to the right place they said tt it's not ready for collection..turns out tt it'd be ready by friday..aiyo..then went to the IT com centre to configure my laptop..they also say go wrong place..sudah lah..i was so fed up i just hang a while in school...before going for the iftar meeting at city hall....hahha..while waiting i got nothing to do..so i folded origamis ..hahha

then i so i headed to city hall..for the meeting..which was very long..hhahaha...penat sey..i was a bit flustered and overwhelmmed with the happenings..but it's just me..i'm always very kanchong when i noe i've got a lot to live up to

and then after that i had tuition..had a very interesting conversation with rio...we were somehow talking about boyfrens
Rio: my mother said i cannot have boyfren (she's in pri 3)
me: why?
Rio: because my mom said tt if i had one i'd get pregnant. and i'm not ready cos i'm still schooling.

hahahha..and she is only nine..hahaha...

after tt i headed down to nenek's house..i was so so tired that i fell asleep...for half an hour..while everybody terawih..Masyallah Lin....hahah..they said in the middle of terawih suddenly got a huuuuge comotion upstairs..hahha guess wat..hady won!!!and they were screaming and jumping up and down...hahaahh..funny

we sent pak busu off today..so sad..we had our last swensens session together...sobz...and wen were sending him off i was the first one to tear..the everybody started to tear up..ya i just kissed and hug him and salam him la..so sad..i was so scared tt i cannot control myself so i just made it quick..sighs i am so emotional ..too emotional sometimes..oh wait all the time..so goodbye pak busu..goodbye for two yrs..hehehe..

| 12:37 AM |

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Monday, September 25, 2006

the cousins :)

pak busu and me..hazwan xtra at the back

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Sunday, September 24, 2006

today was the first day of ramadhan..yay!!! so far so good ..everything went on smoothly..just tht morning sahur i abit grumpy..but hey..i'm always grumpy in the mornings..so i ate sahur and prayed subuh with my eyes close..so far so good la..never bum into anything..syukur.............hopefully as ramadahn progresses the size of my eyes in the mornings would increase..hopefully

so today being the first day of ramadhan..naturally, it goes without saying that we break our fast over at nenek's house...nenek made roti kirai today..yum...and firah brought over some popiah which was delicious..i made sure i tak tamak and eat a lot like last year cos i noe i can't even stand up let alone solat..hehheheh..

today like very sad la..my pak busu going off tomoro night for dubai for work for 2 years..but he like not sad like tt la..so i took a picture with him..ya la..two yrs later he sure got more white hair so must have the before and after picture..hehehe...heard that his life there is gonna be more relaxed..since he will only be working till 2..the rest of the time he said he would play golf..he said of course la he want to enjoy himself..he said" wat else can i do?..cry?..bcos my wife and children are in spore"..hahahah so nonsense la pak busu ..not sentimental at all..he was polishing his golf clubs today..cos he sad tt he has to leave them in spore..padahal he bringing along his other 2 sets to dubai..ish ish ish

so ppl today was singapore idol finals...you guys noe who to vote for...vote for TALENT! ie. vote for Hady Mirza..yay!!!i voted already and you should too! my family only vote for teh finals..then just now pak busu was like saying to his family "okay everyone can vote ten times each" cos he's paying the bills so ya la he must give permission first..then he said "o eveybody except azri. azri can only vote twice............................................ cos he voting for jonathan."hahhahahaha...kesian azri..tapi memang patut last yr also he support sly..aper jer..

wow so ngantuk today..tomoro's gonna be a loooooong day

nightz!

| 10:51 PM |

Adieu.