Saturday, October 28, 2006

i am suddenly so f****** pissed about love..i duno why..i dunno wat triggered it...i'm just so freaking frustrated...aarrggghhh...like why cant things just fall into place..wat is it about..i'm so sick of being deep and trying to think of it as something sacred and something that is above my understanding..watever la!..screw it!

| 8:56 PM |

Adieu.

i can't help blogging bout this..i was watching Laguna Beach the third season and i can't help but be so amazed at how a couple broke up..the conversation went something like this..i can't remember..so this is like the gist of it..

girl: i stiill like you a lot but i dun tink like ... we should be together
boy: yeah..i think you're boring..and it's like evrytime we meet...we dun talk
girl:..like..yeah
boy: i guess..like..this is it
girl:yeah..........so i guess i see you in school?
boy: yeah

hugs each other and goes separate ways

no tears..no fits..no nothing..they go their separate ways..and that's it! it's done
and i was like "wat??!!"..that's all..that's freaking all..when i broke up..i felt the world crashing down on me..i felt as if i was going thru a divorce minus paper work and deciding who the kids belong to..and like every women going thru a divorce....i blamed myself for it..i blame myself for being selfish..for always putting myself before others..i felt guilty for putting my "career" before my other half..i felt guilty for everything for causing so much hurt and pain...i felt as if in the end it was all my fault..i still do..i felt like going to a cousellor......

but..in America...is that how they treat relationships over there?..am i being too emotional?..is it just a tv show and that's why it was like tt..short and sweet and no drama..maybe to a small extent it is..but man...how can they treat a relationship like that...ok i'm being too emo.....haiya..i just am la...i can't help it..i think with my heart..which is really bad for essays cos you form losy sentences..and have extremely ad vocab..

i better go sleep now..just returned from the airport..pak busu returned back to Dubai after spending Hari Raya here...hope we get to see him for hari Raya Haji..good night world...

adieu

| 1:00 AM |

Adieu.

Friday, October 27, 2006

For some reason i was unable to upload the picture of the yummy cupcake that i can only wish to eat right now..i am sick yet again..yes sniffles and all..even a sore throat to complete it all..the thing about me when i'm sick is that i'm almost non-functioning...because my brain would be too lazy to function and all i think about is sleep..and the only form of medicine i have is panadol and lozenges if that counts.. lozenges has been my staple diet yet again.happens everytime i get a sore throat. i just pop in down one after another wishing that the pain would just go away..and oh ya very very frequent visits to the toilet cos i've increased my liquid uptake...cos u noe when you're sick you're supposed to rest and drink plenty of liquid...oh and all the restrictions that comes along with being sick..cannot eat my ben and jerrys, cannot eat my toblerone....nevermind la..now's a good time to be sick..but i wonder where i got the bug from..i mean no one in my family is sick and neither are any of my close friends..plus i watched my diet super closely onhari raya..the only soft drink i drank was at nenek's house..one super small glass of ice-cream soda...that's all! i can't even blame it on stress cos my stress level is lower than 8..i just submited my gene essay and now i'm only left with tok din's project...-_-

so okay no more feeling sorry bout myself..hee...shira's friends are coming over today..man i dun wanna give duit raya..i feel so old...

i so dun feel like doing the whole jalan raya thing..the only confirmed jalan raya is with the ac kids in which for some reason azad is extremely enthusisatic about..but hey i do miss them ALOT...the other jalan raya that is almost confirmed is the genes jalan raya..hahhaha...so merepek...but i like :D

i dun think i have enough baju kurungs to like wear to all the jalan rayas if all are confirmed..oh and i still have one more kebaya which is not ready and still at the tailors...dunno whether my mom would bother to go down just to take the kebaya...the weekends are like reserved for jalan rayas...

ok i think i better go now i'm like sneezing non-stop and it's difficult to type

enjoy the visiting ppl :D

Adieu

| 10:18 AM |

Adieu.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

this is how i spent my raya this year.enjoy...........................

our tradition....

eating...goes withour saying

hari raya must happy happy...

angah picking fruits for us...very sweet starfruits from his garden....

how often does this happen.....heheh

getting ready la..............

the paparazi..

| 12:17 AM |

Adieu.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

forgot to blog about wat me and the lailas did on friday
we finally found the time to go out
after like inviting a couple of ppl..it ended up just the three of us on a friday night..i really miss going out with the lailas...i really really miss it..i'm myself most when i'm around them...:)

i forgot to take a pic of our food..i only remebered wen there was one rodeo chicken left..(which I had to eat...Laila k's fault)...hee :D

after our swensen's dinner..we went to coffee bean to ec as usual..which started out slow..cos laila k was looking like this............-_-

but hey we ALWAYS have fun in the end...see!

| 11:07 AM |

Adieu.