Saturday, October 21, 2006

i was so sad, i was so depressed, i was so confused. I was so afraid to make a decision. I was afraid because i was afraid of making mistakes. i was afraid that i'd regret the desicion i was going to make. but Laila was right. You make a decision and you stick to it. If you do regret it later on, it is somethig you are responsible of and you deal with it then. But for now, you do what's best for you. Or rather what's best for me. i was so scared that i was actually shaking as i held the phone to my ears. and as usual i broke down and cried. So wat does a girl do when she breaks down? She calls her friends and she buys shoes. Both of which i did and i felt better. a little better. I mean the shoes were really nice. i almost give up at first cos there was nothing....nothing i like at all...which was surprising considering the fact that i went to like 3 major stores..reluctantly i headed to charles and keith. i wasn't that enthusiastic cos lately it has a really bad reputation for its bad quality shoes, but luckily i went because it was the only store in which i was spoilt for choice and was in a dilemma...

so as you can see by the choices i had it was really difficult to make a decision. one was like strappy brown (that's the one of the left). the other was a blingy one (the centre one)..and the other was like a vintage shoe or smtg..it was really cool..after contemplating..and walking around the store wit hthe shoes..all this ALL ALONE..BY MYSELF..while others had like their mothers, boyfriends etc with them...i decided on the............................................................................................. vintage one....hehhehe.oh i really liked the brown one but it's a little boring..and i got all the time in the world to be boring...and the other one..the blingy one..everybody ahs blingy shoes, blingy baju kurung,,bliny everything..so ya...at least i'm a little happier..at least.......

Adieu all..back to my social work assingnment :(

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Adieu.

came across a good reminder for all of us ....from the MS yahoo group..and the scary thing is i fit most of the things found in the list..........

SIGNS OF WEAK IMAAN
1) Committing sins and not feeling any guilt.
2) Having a hard heart and no desire to read the Quran.
3) Feeling too lazy to do good deeds, e.g. being late for salat
4) Neglecting the Sunnah.
5) Having mood swings, for instance being upset about petty things and bothered and irritated most of the time.
6) Not feeling anything when hearing verses from the Quran, for example when Allah warns us of punishments and His promise of glad tidings.
7) Finding difficulty in remembering Allah and making dhikr.
8) Not feeling bad when things are done against the Shariah.
9) Desiring status and wealth.
10) Being mean and miserly, i.e. not wanting to part with wealth.
11) Ordering others to do good deeds when not practising them ourselves.
12) Feeling pleased when things are not progressing for others.
13) Being concerned with whether something is haram or halal only; and not avoiding makroo (not recommended) things.
14) Making fun of people who do simple good deeds, like cleaning the mosque.
15) Not feeling concerned about the situation of Muslims.
16) Not feeling the responsibility to do something to promote Islam.
17) Being unable to deal with calamities, for instance crying and yelling in funerals.
18) Liking to argue just for the sake of arguing without any proof.
19) Becoming engrossed and very involved with dunya, worldly things, i.e. feeling bad only when losing something in terms of material wealth.
20) Becoming engrossed and obsessive about ourselves.

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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

the original mont blanc....

mont blanc's relative..owned by my favourite doll, blythe doll

zafirah's kittty kat....noname....but sice both of us sedara..our cats are sedaras also

finally....finally..wireless internet connection has been restored back to my com after being gone for..let me see....5 days..5 VERY VERY VERY LONG.................days..oh my god..i'm telling you..i swear i was so close to throwing this lappie of mine out of the window yesterday...i am at the reference section of the central library now...while others are minding their own business with thick thick books, noses buried in their work, wat am i doing?..blogging..how nice and very intelligent of me..i bet everybody thinks that i am working on some very very imporatnt paper....bcos i look so serious and important now....hehehhehe...wat rubbish!

stress level is still rding high..but it's more managable now..i found the secret to not be so selenger and kanchiong..it's for me to keep very very calm and do things slowly..bcos i notice that when i [anic i do everything wrongly and horribly...

so aniwei..my to-do list has grown a little bti shorter..alhamdulillah..i've sat thru my test, handed in my soci essay and more or less settled my marketing thingy bejingy...so i'm left with:-
1. social work report
2. Genes Report
3. Malay studies report....
Super super long reports...that is suppoesedly easy since this is only my first year oh no, wait..first SEMESTER in nus...sighs..... :)

so ya..so much has happened since i last blogged
sunday-buka at pak ngah's house (ate until i cannot ea)
monday-almost died of hunger...hahah..was an exceptionally hungry day for me
tuesday- the whole family tak bangun sahur, bcos ina forgot to wake us up..oops..heehhehe
got a shock of my life when Azad sort of prank called me and i also helped fazzy find stuff...

oh and today i woke up with one eye bigger than the other..aperjer.......

oh and i realised that mont blanc has a lot of relatives.....see pictures above

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

unglamorous shot of me waiting for the train..super tired and grouchy

shirah and me..with my grilled fish...yum..

mama...trying her best to look like a no-nonsense-i -am-a-normal-mother..not...hehheheh

papa, too engrossed in getting the ketchup out of the bottle

today was break fast together day..yay..mini stress reliever for me..after so long of not breaking fast with them it was nice to go to Mad Jack..food was good..but nothing beats the seafood at manhattan fish market..oooo..i still drool wen i talk about the food there..and i still have dreams on tucking into a meal there..weird?..but i like to eat ....a lot..after the meal i had banana crumble..with ice cream and caramel sauce....oooo..so nice...i LoVe bananas..and apples..speaking of which it's been a while since i had apple chips

went shopping with sufiyan for raya stuff..end up buying non-raya stuff..i bought a belt la..well none of the clutches or high heels caught my eye..how sad....

ok..break over..back to soci
groans..............
adieu

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me and shamiah..getiing our henna done..
being good girls and supporting MS
:)

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