Thursday, January 18, 2007
i promise to ...
not spend anymore money. just now after so long..i decided to brave myslef and look at my account balance. i've been avoiding this moment for so so long. But today i finally decided that there's no point being in denial and that i should knoe the truth to avoid the situation where the lady at the cashier has to reject my card. and my jaw just dropped when i was standing at the atm just now.. seriously i can really spend..and now i finally agree with my mom...i dun need any more clothes for now....and u know what was the best part..after finding out my pathetic account balance, i went to topshop and bought the wide leg pants that i have been eyeing..i noe..wth..i was practically crying at the cashier..but there was this force that wasnt me..that picked up that pair of pants..and paid for it..but..man..the price of the pants were like slashed by 70%..i think i need therapy..and counselling...and budget management..which i'm sure fadzli will lecture me about...
i think i have n choice but to give tuition..sighs..mylife is gonna be crazy..but then again..what's new?
i think i would have to give up eating nice food at megabites..sighs..that little piece of heaven at school..i mean for the first time i get to eat pasta, mashed potatoes and grilled fish at school..not at the same time ok...
and i will have to look shabby at school..to reflect the state of my bank account..
i'm so so sad :(
adieu
| 8:52 PM |
Adieu.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Actually this was supposed to be yesterday’s post
Today was an exceptionally long day.. I had to wake up xtra early for my theatre studies lecture..anw..am I biased? I really dun fancy my ts1101e lecturer and he gives me the jitters. I dunno whether it’s his fashion sense, the snooty manner in which he speaks in or the fact that he is a diva. Which ever is why, being a timid mouse..i just feel intimidated my his mannerisms. I just feel that he fits the stereotype of what a drama or theatre teacher for that matter should be like..just minus off the fancy beret and scarf around his neck.
Well well..moving on..today’s lectures was very saturated I feel..dr suriani really makes use of the full one hour and forty five minute assigned to her..and as interested I am with what she has to say about families..i found myself having to try my very best to focus to what she was talking about..aniwei..while on my way home,I was doing my sc2205 readings..and one thing was stuck in my head..that is the glorification of marriage especially so in today’s society. And one of the reasons for this is to make marriage very appealing to today’s women. Well this is because, today’s women no longer marry to find financial support because I believe that they are more than capable to that on their own. However women tend to look for more intrinsic values when the idea of marriage pops into their head. For example, care, concern, etc etc from their partner. And more often than not, they tend to set very high standards for their perspective partners that they end up not marrying altogether. Another cause for the glorification of marriage is that when young couples do feel that they have found “the one” and have settled down, they expect a lot from the partners emotionally. Therefore, when problems arise, they are less willing to try to work things out with their spouse because in actual fact they are not ready for a marriage but are just drawn to the idea of marriage. This could be due to many reasons, one of them being the fact that married men and women are highly regarded in the society, etc, etc Oprah once said that there is a problem of couples being ready for the wedding but not for the marriage. I couldn’t have said it any better.
So I guess that I am almost a victim of the glorification of marriage. Why almost? Well it’s simply because I am not married yet am i? hehhe.. but when the idea of marriage pops into my head it is usually of a beautiful wedding by the sea, attended by the people I love and me looking radiant with red petals floating all around me. Ok I cant believe that I just admitted this to the whole world. It was supposed to be private.. oh well..hahahha..well I do set very high standards for my future spouse and some of the reasons are I think listed above..however..the thing about me is that I practice moderation. Something I guess which is emphasized over and over again in Islam. While I am not expecting to marry the next prime minister of Singapore, I am not going to short change my life for a partner below my expectations no?
Sheesh if my mom ever comes across this I’m sure she will have a long lecture ready for me for already thinking about marriage :P
Well well..heheheh..aniwei I think I need to dress up more for school. I’ve been only wearing shirts and jeans to classes lately and not to forget my enormous roxy backpack. Guess I’ve been opting for comfort over style lately so that I can carry all my stuff in my bag leaving my hands free to…..to…erm….i dunno..just leave my hands free I guess…hahaha…
Sighs I was actually going to write a whiny entry about my family..heeh…but since I’m on that resolution to not be a procrastinator..one of the steps is not to be a whiny person..altho I do do it to laila very often..ala who cares la! Hahhahah
I a bit penat la..and it has only been Tuesday..sheesh…
Adieu
| 6:14 PM |
Adieu.
Monday, January 15, 2007
random thots
it's time for the day for me to blog...
hahha.i think blogging is the one thing i look forward to everyday..i never knew that i'd be an addict since i am such a loser when it comes to technology..but i really feel that blogging is like a therapy for me..like jotting down my thot for the day altho it's really nonsense sometimes and i'm actually blogging about absolutely nothing..like what i'm doing now..hahaaha
school was good today..i finally got to doing my minutes for pentas budaya which i noe is long overdued..sorry..i dun think any pentas budaya ppl read my blog...which is good i guess..hehehhe..but i managed to finish a lot of stuff today..i'm actually very nervous for theatre studies..it seems tt the theory is very difficult..gasp..i'm nervous..the course is also quite heavy..
ya la i'm starting o get jitters bcos i noe that school is gonna start for real very very soon.... :s and i noe that projects and assingnments are gonna start rolling in pretty soon..but i noe tt i'm gonna take it in my stride.. :D yes yes all tat positivity is good..
so school aside..i was just thinking that if i was any character from a tv show..i'm quite like carrie from sex and the city..i havent really watched all the episodes or series of sex and the city..but from what i see we're quite similar..we adore clothes..........(just that she has more money)..we have great friends (no doubt abt that)...she writes..(well i'm not really a writer..but i do blog everyday..i guess that does count for a bit)..and we're a bit of a loser when it comes to finding mister right..i guess the only difference is that i most definitely do not sleep around..thta's just eewwwwwww
aniwei i came across something in my yahoo groups posted by ibnur which is really helpful for my new year resolution.which is to not procrastinate..so just thot that i share it..
Characteristics of PRODUCER vs. Procrastinator:
Think, feel and envision like a WINNER. Be One. Do not be a Whiner, and complain about the past failures that could pull you and people around you down.
Be RESPONSIVE. Evaluate the present situation. Take actions to improve the situation for yourself and others. Do not React. Be responsible, not reactive.
Being OPTIMISTIC is not ignoring the negatives, but improving negatives into positives. Never be Pessimistic. It tires you and people around you to be pessimistic.
Differentiate btw VISION and Illusion. Vision needs you to know the value behind something, and certainty of success. Illusion is blindly doing things and get nothing.
EXECUTE your actions well. No Excuses. Execute and kill off the excuses. They make you feel weaker. Remove “I can’t do this because…”. Say, like Nike, “Just Do It.”
Always PARTICIPATE. Do not Spectate. It should be “I POWER”, never “EYE POWER”.
“Chance favours the PREPARED mind.” – Louis Pasteur. “Failure favours the Fearful mind.” – Me (Wanted to put Anonymous, but later if you check at Wiki, don’t have.)
Success = Preparation + Opportunities Opportunities = Problem + Solution Solution = Concentration + Wisdom
Know that YOU are your Enemy (Inner Me). Know that SYAITAN is your greatest Enemy. Don’t make it your Inner Me.
Know that TIME is limited. YOU control TIME, don’t let SYAITAN take it away from YOU.
how inspiring :D
ok that's all from me...
adieu
| 7:00 PM |
Adieu.
