Saturday, December 02, 2006

I Want To do Everything in Life

today is a fashion disaster day (see picture above)...i was a walking fashion mistake..really..woke up late for my talaqqi class..hehe..so i was like walking around the house stressing out what to wear..i have not packed for my trip and i need to set aside clothes..therefore there was a lot of things i coulndt wear..so ina finally passed me her top which she cant fit in anymore and i paired it with a black skirt and my sandals..big mistake! i look like one of those makciks at arab street...no offence to makciks of the world my mom is one of them...

so anw followed ina round cos she was meeting her fren and she wanted someone to go home with..we stopped by kinokuniya..i came across this really interesting book..i cant remmeber the exact title but it's something like "what if i want to do everything?"..something like that la..but that was me!..the book was pratically screaming my name.so i quickly flipped through the book..actually just the first chapter or so..the book was actually about people who are scanners..ok not literally scanners..but anw it's about people who want to balance everything in their lives..people who want to try everything but never mange to finish what they intend to do..that's exactly me!..and i wished tat i stayed on to finish up the book..so that i know how to handle my problem...i mean i want to balance everything in my life...my family, my studies, my friends, my love life, my cca..every freaking thing i put my whole heart into..and i end up exhausted without results..and therefore i feel that it's time for me to change and become more eficient...

i'm so going back there to figure out how to do that....

(ps. oh i bought a pair of nice shoes today ;P)

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Adieu.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

I hate it when...

people judge me..i simply hate it when someone who has no idea what i am going thru pass a comment or try to 'advice' me..but i'm really getting used to that idea now..ppl are gonna talk..u cannot stop them. nothing can.

my mom nags me when i get home..i dun get it..i dun see her often cos i'm almost always not at home..and it's the first and last thing she does to me..it really spoils my day..after a long day outside..i just wanna get home...fine if she does not want to manja me or anything..a little peace and quiet would be nice..i'm the sort who really likes a little 'me' time every single day..you noe.. personal time for myself...dun get me wrong i love being around ppl..especially those who can me laugh or just make my time with them really worthwhile..but whatever it is i really appreciate the alone time for me..it could just be me reading a mag..or blogging...watever la...but it's very very impt that i have that time..so it really doesnt help..the nagging i mean.....-_-

i dun have shoesssssssssssssss

when my exams are not over but i really really really really do not feel like studying...

watched a really good movie today called 'Last Kiss'..i liked it cos it was real..and it was really an apt movie movie for me now...i'll give it 4 popcorns!..yay..the movie is funny, intense, romantic and just plain sweet at times....but it's M18....heez go watch it if u have the time...okie i'll go now..nightz everyone

(6 more day to dubai)

adieu :)

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Adieu.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Love, life and my exams...
and so i screwed up my social work exams..man..i hate it when i go thru that whole blank moment..when there's nothing going thru my head..absolutely nothing..and i can hear like this buzzing sound in my head..and i look up around me..people scribbling furiously on their scripts..and i look down at my script..some incoherent sentence that looks like it was written by a primary 6 kid. and den the exam ends..and suddenly the thots come flooding...damn it! why didn't i write that down...but u noe what? social work is so bloody boring...i duno how many gazillion times i zone out while trying to study it today..oh well..it's over...moving on.....................................................

ok watever...lets' talk about smtg else...let's talk about luuuurrrrveee..sometimes i think wat's the point? after all that i'm going thru..wat's the point?..i keep telling myself that i dun ever want to do this..i dun ever want to fall in love again with someone else so that i so that i can spare myself from all this hurt..but i do....i do want to be in love..have someone i can cherish, hold dear, call sayang..i do..i want all of that ..but i'm not looking for a boyfriend..i'm looking for a husband...yeah i am..man tat sounds so jiwang..i dun care la...i want to get married..and i want to do it before i get old..and i'm gonna let time decide..the irony...i noe tat i have to take action..decide on what i want..but i don't noe what i want..and i belive in fate..so strongly...and i have faith..no matter what i go through..i have always believed in fate bcos too many things have happened in my life..where i dun trust fate and try to take it into my own hands, the results r disastrous..and wen i get upset over smtg tt doesnt go my way..it always turn out good in the end..i have been lucky...and i am just here to thank GOD....for his blessings that he showered upon me...and likei said before..i believe in finding the light at the end of this very long and dark tunnel...

actually that two paragraphs were written yest..hehheheh

i went shopping alone today..
i was supposed to get like shoes or something..for my dubai trip la..cos all my pumps are like rabak..either the soles are like gone..oh they're in a weird shape..oh my gold pumps has a hole and my mom had to beg me to stop wearing them which i cannot help cos they's so comfy and cute...but ya i've given them up..they're in my shoe hall of fame now..hehe....and my blue pumps they look dirty..so sad.i really loved them..and my minnie mouse shoe..the ribbon keep coming out...and my nice ethnic shoes..sighs i dunno what happened..the base of the shoe is like gone..so now i'm left with my pretty gold sandals..which makes me cold in the library...so yes lailas..i do need shoes..but anw..back to my story...since i couldnt find anything to buy at bugis street.i ended up with 2 tops..heez..i noe..i'm a notti girl...i was looking for the cool vintage tops..i noe like it is so common but i coulnt help myself la..man..the competition is vicious...i've always liked bugis street for the friendly service and quality cheap stuff..so it was weird seeing the competition..i'm sure it was there all along..i just didnt see it..

so ya two tops for lin..Yay! :D

i am looking forward to my trip to dubai...it's really a breather for me..please pray that i come home a happier person ok? ..insyAllah....

for those having exams..persevere the end is almost here..hhehehe
that goes for me too la...hehe

adieu all

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Adieu.

Monday, November 27, 2006

so tired....to avoid ppl commenting about my font i shall type normally..i was just being artistic honestly and the font thing it kinda reflects my state of mind..so aniwe..3 more papers to go..sighs..why is the pain prolonged..cant wait for my escape!

adieu

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Adieu.