Saturday, August 11, 2007

after days of no appetite and not looking forward to meal times plus not to mention sharing food with friends (because i cant even finish a meal), i think i have more or less gained back my appetite. yay! all thanks to the lailas whom i met today at the airport for our last ec session before we head back for school. we went to the airport to pick up LailaJ's buddy from Croatia whom is very cute i must say. and for the first time, i actually ate at Fish and Co. . even i am surprised. it was delish!!! i ordered grilled fish with corriander sauce and it was really fantastic, the rice was just nice. i am glad that i have gained back my appetite.

i am so not ready for school. my mind is not geared back and i cannot bear the thought of writing essay after essay. i hope that this sem i would be able to concentrate on my studies and maintain if not improve my grades. i am excited for pbm and i also hope to extend my social network and have more non-malay friends. as for now i only have one non-malay friend, Kanch! so schad oni.

i can feel the impending emotional rollercoasters that i would have to go through next sem. life is not easy for an emotional person who feels a lot and tries to hide her feelings. i just hope that i pull through despite everything. mourn for the loss but move on with my life. it's never easy to end a chapter of my life, but maybe this is better for everyone. thank goodness for family and friends who are always there to guide me.

pictures are from the our mini outing yesterday to te bowling alley and also from today's ec session. <3

Labels: family, friends

| 8:36 PM |

Adieu.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby,
I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Labels: the end

| 10:20 AM |

Adieu.

and i feel like a failure cos i tried and there was no results

| 12:51 AM |

Adieu.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

and i really cant belive that this is over....................................
and you noe what? it was really alot better than expected!
and this are some reasons why Pentas Budaya 07 rocked!

1. becos we had a lot of help from other ppl like muni :)

2. bcos it's a joy taking fotos with ppl who step handsome (points at latiff)

3. because cam whoring backstage with Farhanah's "vogue" face is cool

4. bcos u get to wear costumes that matches yus's car

5. bcos u get surrounded by hot (not) people

6. because u get free cake

7. because shy omar said i had nice eyes

8. because i get to work with these oh-so-cute SA boys

and a million other reasons but i only have these fotos in my camera phone and i just wanted cool captions...to my comm husni, wany, ibnur, farhana, shamiah, yasmine, yati, fatima, faatihah, shai, liza..this is one event that i thot wouldnt pull thru..but somehow by Allah's grace we did it....and working with u guys was a joy! *despite heart attacks duirng the planning, minutes before the show and during te show.( next time i tabulate scores..i need a calculator)

and i thot that mu busy-ness would end but i have a meeting bright and early tomorrow (how exciting -_-) hahaha

i think i am in deep shit

Go Read Shamiah's blog for an accurate re account of what actually happened... :)

Labels: pentas budaya

| 1:46 AM |

Adieu.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

hey baby when we are together
doing things that we love
everytime you're near i feel like im in heaven
i don't want to let go girl
i just need you to know girl

i dun wanna run away
baby you're the one i need tonight
no promises
baby now i need tohold u tight
i just wanna die in your arms here tonight

| 2:00 AM |

Adieu.

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Happy Twentieth Birthday Sufiyan Sulaiman!

and so today amidst preparations for pentas budaya..(which is tomorrow!)..i gave sufiyan a very humble gift i must say..of gold class tickets to watch one of ihs favourite movies of all times...of course whatever i do will never match what he did for my birthday. but there's more to come.:)

so here is my birthday shoutout to the birthday boy who thinks that his birthday is just any other day. i dun like to think of birthdays like that. birthdays are sacred to me!

on a different note..i have not been blogging much these days cos i am at a lost for words most of the times and yes i do have to censor certain thought s and feelings. and i lost a lot of things that i love lately..like my appetite for good food and even more upsetting..my love for shopping..i am so so so so so sad. once all this pentas budaya thing is over and i get some income..i will force myself to go shoping cos maybe retail therapy works..today i wore my long dress..and i must say that it makes me feel like a woman..HAHAHAH..that's such a kental statement!

Labels: happy birthday sufiyan

| 8:12 PM |

Adieu.

Monday, August 06, 2007

some overdued pictures...from fiesta de la siesta
(my outfit was terrible..i couldnt find anything spanish enough to wear)

the competition..hehehe

Labels: fiesta de la siesta

| 11:58 AM |

Adieu.

i really really wanna blog about something cool and interesting. but it's difficult cos im too lazy to express myself. which is funny cos my life has not been short of drama this past few weeks.

and school's starting soon. :( pentas budaya is on wednesday. im excited to see the performance. I absolutely adore the SA boys! they are so sincere and energetic and enthusiastic. it makes it all worth it. and when i watched the pros rehearsed, my heart just soared. suddenly the $10 ticket seemed too cheap for taht kind of quality. and the groups were so coordinated and uplifting. im excited for pentas budaya(for once!)

i have been having a lot of fun with the pbm ppl and the foc comm. i hope me and the lailas can meet up for ec onle last time b4 school reopens.

i wanna get heels!

| 12:19 AM |

Adieu.