i havent been in the mood to blog lately. there are many nights that i open up to my blogger home page, stare at the screen, think of what to type, minimize the screen (in case some thing pops up later) then finish all my work and realise that i still have nothing to pen down. if i were to describe what im feeling for the time being, it would be contented. maybe that's why i have nothing to say. yet at the same time, the emptiness is hitting me. but im determined to get through this. it shall not b a cycle for me and i shall not be a victim of it.

im upset. im upset with all this. for the first time, it seems as if a lot of people are against me. at first i was confident that as long as i know what im doing it will all be ok. im convinced that in this world that i live in i dun owe anybody any explanations if i know what i was doing with my life. hey it is my life after all. and for once i was telling myself that it's ok that people are not accurate when they judge me, i dun have to go around and explain the real situation to them. it's tiring to do that. i overestimated myself, i thought that it'd be easier to handle this thing. and i forgot that im a GIRL...hahhah..with lots and lots of emotions and feelings and HORMONES! haha.....

Aiyah..im sure i'll be ok la. i just need time and food and money..hahaha..and i have lots of readings ot catch up with. and i also need to clean up my messy room and do something about my weight issue. so no biggie i'll just pick myslef right up..like i always do... :)