okay today was super duper damn fun that i cannot wait to blog!

i am so tired but i really really had fun! thanks to artika, hudee and shamiah. i seriously didnt expect anythig from them. we just planned to go to marina and fly kites cos i have never ever done it. but they were so so sweet cos they went out of the way to plan me something. totally unexpected and caught me off guard. they bought a birthday cake and even presents! i was so so touched and i couldnt believe that they went out of their way to do tat. i felt so so bad cos i didnt noe whether it was my fault that i kept announcing my bdae during f.o.c meeting. my intention was to just poke fun and be an idiot during the meeting and i really didnt expect anything from anybody. but they were all so so sweet that i cant stop gushing about them. hudee, haireez and artika bought me a gorgeous bag. shamiah got me this really super duper cool notebook from the states. the design on the cover is of some cryptic motif. I LOVE IT! she even got me a pencil from San Francisco Museum of Modern Art! and im so glad that i finally get to meet her again after so long. and Fazzy popped down to pass me my present. a box full of things like poems, a wand, CD, jelly beans, chocolates etc etc. it was so obvious that he went to great lengths to prepare it and i am ever so greatful and touched. Thank You everybody for EVERYTHING! i feel more blessed than ever and i do not know what i did to deserve people like you in my life.

Kite flying is so fun im telling you. if you havent tried it you should cos it was my first time just now and it was so addictive. it was so fun running around, screaming "Let it go, Let it go!" or "Tarik, tarik!". it's somethign cheap that you can do. my Hello Kitty kite cost me $4/-. and always believe in the power of the kitty, after 2 hours of trying and not giving up we managed to get the kite up so high that the string just seemed to disappear in the clouds and u couldnt take a picture of your kite in the sky cos it was so so so so small. i bet ppl in Clementi could see my Hello Kitty Kite. it was so high that Shamiah said "eh, kena kapal terbang tak?" hahahaha and we took one whole hour to actually wind the string back down...

there's this feeling that kite flying brings towards me taht's difficult to explain. after trying over and over again, i realised that the whole process is a lot like life itself. that we should learn to trust one on a while. when we first began we kept tugging at the string, and then we realised that the key was to let go off the kite and trust the wind to carry it higher into the sky, yet other times you also realise that it's a lot about skill, as you learn how to manuover the kite, to angle it somehow in the opposite direction of the wind so that it stays in the sky longer. and sometimes you tug at the string to get better control of the kite. similarly, life is all about trusting, learning when to let go. But at the same time learning the skills of the trade and making the right decisions. i am definitely going back there to try it again, but i wont do it too often cos as sufiyan as sufiyan put it aptly, "it will lose its novelty". i kept the Hello kitty Kite to remind me of life lessons and of course to remind me how blessed i am.

we ended the day with dinner at Banquet and endless girl talk. seriously we couldnt stop jabbering! upload pictures ok, i have so so few!

it was a nice ending to a day that stared off with Pentas Budaya meeting. i am a bit jaded about teh whole thing. and i feel guilty cos i know taht people like Husni, Wany and Ibnur has put in waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more effort in to this project. when i ended my marketing stint with dsl i swore myslef off marketing because i didnt like the work. and i feel so guilty and i am fully aware that the state of emergency with markting at this point of time is all my fault. and i hate to say this but i am doing this just for the sake of doing this and that i do not want to let my team down after letting them down countless if times. and when i look at what i have to do i am just over whelmed. i know that i have help but i dunno where to start. and have i mentioned that i am overwhelmed. i hate calling people up and not only do i have to do marketing for pentas budaya i have to call 30 companies for FOC!!! the only thing that is keeping me going firstly my friends and secondly that small voice in my head telling me that i will grow stronger, wiser and more experienced from all this. i am jaded..

but i am so happy tat this birthday week has brought me away from all this :)

i cant thank everyone enough!