my birthday is coming..hehe..im excited but at the same time im one step closer to death. you might think im morbid but it's the truth. our prophet once said that the smartest ppl on earth are those who always think about death. and it really puts thinks into perspective. because i've been so involved and bsorbed in this worldly events, thinking about my approaching birthday makes me take a step back to review my life so far. and yes i am extremely guilty for being to absorbed in the material world, in fact in all the deadly sins. so yes it's a gentle reminder for me that my life on earth are numbered and it's high time that i remember where i would end up.

any hoos i went for pentas budaya meeting just now. but halfway, the meeting turned into a muslimah night meeting cos farhana, yasmine and yati were there..and we cant help it cos muslimah night is like next friday and there are a lot of things to settle and i havent been attending soo many meetings and i need to catch up. im sure husni was pissed off at us, and this is a super lousy excuse... but i really couldnt help it.

and i thought that next week would be less busy next week...but my looking at my schedule. i dun think sooo...hahaha...oh well it's like i noe it's the holidays but i dun mind doing all this cos it's my version of fun and honestly i rather do this then bum around at home. i've been bumming around for too many holidays in my life and im trying to make up for lost time. but ya la i try to space out things and so far so good but i think it will get more intense once PPP rehearsals get more frequent. the only down side is that i am low on cash. boooo.....

my entries are getting more and more boring because it's getting more and more descriptive..... and i am such a worry wart that i will spell out my insecurities. but yes i am very insecure about myself. and that's why i have a blog..to pour out everything..all my thots, feelings and angst. i hope that one day i'll be more secure and confident with myself so much so that i dun need my blog for the function of pouring out my insecurities.