one is sick and the other one is "cacat" (yes my sister did it again..she fractured her leg this time round)...oh well im surrounded by sick ppl..even lailaj is sick..and my granmother's toe is still not healed..so get well soon to everyone who is sick....dun forget your medicine and make sure you take in plenty of fluids..

so i decided to save myself from embarassment..and give the last top that i bought from ina. after many nights in front of the mirror with that top.i realise taht it's no use lying to myself and i could never ever pull those puffy sleeves off. i noe it only costs 20 bucks. but right now 20 bucks is a lot of money to me. going ec-ing with the lailas again tmr. we're trying a new place instead of the pacific coffee at city hall so we're heading to vivo. so that means more shops for me to find something i really really like. so pls God let me find smtg i really like cos i wanna buy smtg to make myself feel happy..

i watched the last episode of grey's anatomy..it's so sad la..i cried bucketfuls..i'm such a sucker for these kind of things you noe. i realise that i like to cry. haha..so weird. but after i cry i always feel better. i don't have to be sad to cry..but i think it releases my emotions. aniwei maybe it's the depressed me who's still depressed about clothes. i know it's a selfish and rather narcisistic thing to be depressed about but yes ugly clothes make me very unhappy.

i decided to take up acting for ppp. kamal is right. now's the best time cos i got no school. and laila is also right cos i have nothing to lose. i'll be tired but it's a small price to pay for experience. and as for my time with my family. i'll make full use of my weekday evenings which im free except for those days which i have meetings. and also my sundays which will be reserved solely for them. sufiyan is also giving me his 100% support so im very very thankful for that and i make sure that i spend a couple of evenings in a week with him after he finished work. so hopefully everything will be okay.

so my mom would really kill me if i take up a job. she doesnt want me to mix around with bad company. -_- maybe i'll find more of those one day jobs. maybe. hopefully. desperate for it.