third entry in a day
You know there is something wrong with me when i blog more then two times in a day. it shows that i am thinking..not necessarily about something intelligent or mind-boggling just thinking..the cycle has come to the end for this time around. and i wonder whether another one is coming up. maybe it doesnt matter that i hurt, as long as i can feel that moments of bliss at the begining of the cycle, when i actually feel whole and complete. maybe all the pain is worth it. maybe i'm meant to hurt. i dont think i'll learn to love again. it's so hard. and painful. and tedious.
cant live with him, cant live without him.
i think this is by far the most accurate way to describe how i feel.
anyhoos. just now's presentation went ok i think. it was slack. soon hock was wheeling himself around the computer lab to listen to our presentation. you didnt have to go in front to present your findings. in fact, you didnt even need to stand up. and u are the one who asks questions. not him. hahha...and to think i was so nervous and actually did breathing exercises before the presentation. haha. im such a loser sometimes.
Fazzy thanks for the strawberry chocs.
went home with laila just now. i just realized that our conversations are just utter nonsense and not meaningful at all. it was just us making fun of other people and laughing. so u can guess that i laughed all the way when i was with her. so it was a bit of therapy la. all tat laughing. laughter is the best medicine right? how cliche.
i think my mom is right when she said i give up too easily. i've only spent like a week on my methods paper and i dont feel like doing it anymore. and i havent done my theatre studies paper. due tomoro. haha. but laila was right when she said that it's not a big deal because some how miraculously, u always end up finishing it just on time. (:
tried to look for a new blog skin but all are so ugly! i dun like. is there like a lack of people with good taste in this world! maybe. most are just pretentious idiots. heez. i think i roughly noe what i have in mind. it will be like a newspaper page. with picture, scribblings and personal notes. links, quotes and everything else. and a nice theme to bring it all nicely together. haha. i have a feeling taht it would take months and possible years before i find a perfect blog skin. for now this shall suffice.
my love has now channeled purely to material goods. my heart is turning to stone. someone please get me this wonderful and heavenly pain of loafers from Tods pretty please.
merci...
Adieu
ps. i think i have the best sisters in the world
