Oh smiley lion...... i dunno why...maybe it's the time of the month...haha...but i am so drawn to all this cutesy, oh-to-sweet nothings that is giving me a toothache.. :P oh well..no harm
so my psych test is over..woohoo... but it's not the end..there is still the results. sighs. better get my hello kitty tissues ready again. =^..^=
speaking of hello kitty tissue, the last time i used it was around this time last year, when i received my "A" levels results last year. sighs. i noe what's done is done. but so far all my efforts of proving myself academically has just left me falling flat on my face. i cant even remember the last time i tasted academic success.
anyhoos. yesterday was a time of reflection. sometimes we underestimate the power of reflection. we go through life blindly without stopping to think. "what if i am gone from the face of this earth tomorrow?"..what have i done to make this world a better place (improve the economy with my shopping?)..what is my purpose on this earth? all this stuff i'm doing..izzit enough? what the hell is my purpose in life?
i'm just feeling very insecure about who i am these days. i feel that there is no like solid "proof" of my qualities. like u noe how smart ppl have their grades to show, talented ppl have their medals. and what do i have? ok maybe i'm nice. but where will that get me? and is that even valued in the world today?maybe i dun need to prove to ppl anything. i guess i just need to prove to myself something.
i've been searching for a long long time. i guess my spirits are running a bit low. i'm just trying to make all this seem so easy.
sighs. another burnt weekend.
tmr's schedule ngaji.....tuition....meeting :(
i have no life..
plus i have these things to complete 1) survey for my methods module 2) first draft of family essay 3) preparation for malay studies presentation 4) theatre studies thingy bejingy 5)psych paper (by next friday!) 6) pentas budaya minutes 7) schools for cakap petah
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down in the dumps yet again adieu
question of the day: izzit possible to help someone that does not want to help himself?
i dunno why...maybe it's the time of the month...haha...but i am so drawn to all this cutesy, oh-to-sweet nothings that is giving me a toothache.. :P oh well..no harm