oh goodness..i feel like shit again....my grades suck! no matter how hard i try. it's difficult to ignore it. i'm trying to take it in my stride. but it's just so hard. i dunno why. i dun want it to affect me so much. i want to move on and try some more. but i'm experiencing fatigue.
i dun wanna blame my involvement in PBM. i put myself into it. and i Love doing it. i suck academicaly but at least im appreciated in pbm. and i now what success feels like only when i'm in PBM.
from now on, i prmise not to rely so much on ppl. to learn to stand on my 2 feet. and to be as independent as possible. i would not involve ppl emotionally in my life anymore. i would keep to myself more and keep my thoughts to myself. i want to be strong. and as much as possible, i wil appear confident and care free. i noe i can do this.
