Friday, December 29, 2006
results
So my results really devastated me. I really expected a lot. 2006 is honestly a hell of a year for me and I thought that maybe just maybe by busting my ass for my studies I can not only redeem myself academically but also do something right for once for this year. I just wanted something to feel a sense of achievement about. I wanna feel good about myself, you know that I’m at least good at something. I’ve been feeling like a total loser for such a long time I just want to prove to myself that hey there is some hope for me left and I’m not destined to be a housewife and that’s that . and then my results came today..and it was so disappointing. It was like a prove that yes I am the loser I’ve always thought I was.
The kinds of consolation that I received was how one does not have to be successful in university to be successful in life. Of course there are endless examples that holds this as a testament. However let’s be realistic here, no matter what, in the end IT MATTERS! That piece of paper that you get the end of that ¾ years..heck that matters! Especially in this country, it not only matters, it matters A LOT!
But after spaekign to different ppl about my results i just feel more determined then ever to firstly pull up my cap and secondly get my honours. even tho i dun achieve what i want in the end. what's important to me is that i know i put all my hard work into it. and that's that
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Adieu.
