Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Love, life and my exams...
and so i screwed up my social work exams..man..i hate it when i go thru that whole blank moment..when there's nothing going thru my head..absolutely nothing..and i can hear like this buzzing sound in my head..and i look up around me..people scribbling furiously on their scripts..and i look down at my script..some incoherent sentence that looks like it was written by a primary 6 kid. and den the exam ends..and suddenly the thots come flooding...damn it! why didn't i write that down...but u noe what? social work is so bloody boring...i duno how many gazillion times i zone out while trying to study it today..oh well..it's over...moving on.....................................................
ok watever...lets' talk about smtg else...let's talk about luuuurrrrveee..sometimes i think wat's the point? after all that i'm going thru..wat's the point?..i keep telling myself that i dun ever want to do this..i dun ever want to fall in love again with someone else so that i so that i can spare myself from all this hurt..but i do....i do want to be in love..have someone i can cherish, hold dear, call sayang..i do..i want all of that ..but i'm not looking for a boyfriend..i'm looking for a husband...yeah i am..man tat sounds so jiwang..i dun care la...i want to get married..and i want to do it before i get old..and i'm gonna let time decide..the irony...i noe tat i have to take action..decide on what i want..but i don't noe what i want..and i belive in fate..so strongly...and i have faith..no matter what i go through..i have always believed in fate bcos too many things have happened in my life..where i dun trust fate and try to take it into my own hands, the results r disastrous..and wen i get upset over smtg tt doesnt go my way..it always turn out good in the end..i have been lucky...and i am just here to thank GOD....for his blessings that he showered upon me...and likei said before..i believe in finding the light at the end of this very long and dark tunnel...
actually that two paragraphs were written yest..hehheheh
i went shopping alone today..
i was supposed to get like shoes or something..for my dubai trip la..cos all my pumps are like rabak..either the soles are like gone..oh they're in a weird shape..oh my gold pumps has a hole and my mom had to beg me to stop wearing them which i cannot help cos they's so comfy and cute...but ya i've given them up..they're in my shoe hall of fame now..hehe....and my blue pumps they look dirty..so sad.i really loved them..and my minnie mouse shoe..the ribbon keep coming out...and my nice ethnic shoes..sighs i dunno what happened..the base of the shoe is like gone..so now i'm left with my pretty gold sandals..which makes me cold in the library...so yes lailas..i do need shoes..but anw..back to my story...since i couldnt find anything to buy at bugis street.i ended up with 2 tops..heez..i noe..i'm a notti girl...i was looking for the cool vintage tops..i noe like it is so common but i coulnt help myself la..man..the competition is vicious...i've always liked bugis street for the friendly service and quality cheap stuff..so it was weird seeing the competition..i'm sure it was there all along..i just didnt see it..
so ya two tops for lin..Yay! :D
i am looking forward to my trip to dubai...it's really a breather for me..please pray that i come home a happier person ok? ..insyAllah....
for those having exams..persevere the end is almost here..hhehehe
that goes for me too la...hehe
adieu all
| 9:30 PM |
Adieu.
