Thursday, October 12, 2006
stress level: 8
reasons to be stress......
1. i have a freaking test tomoro..it's mcq and it's open book. easy right? no.........................i am nervous..supposed to visit the raffles museum for the test but i haven't had the time to. so tomorrow before the test itself..i am going to the museum for the visit....ok la not so bad..
2. i have a take home soci essay over the weekend. and this is like my mid-term exam. i'm telling you soci is like giving me very frequent heart attacks..the text book is so thick and i knoe that there is a million and one things to discuss in the essay assingnments..i never oe how to like the question to the stuff that i am learning..which makes me feel very very stupid...
3. my social visit report is due like next next week!! and i haven't started anything!!!
4. my malay studies project is due soon..and my group hasn't met yet..partly my fault cos i got no time
5. my genes report..due a few days after raya..also haven't started..aarrgghh!!!
6. dsl marketing...must complete by the end of next week!!!
looking st this list makes my blood pressure rise..and my heart thump faster....and besides all this..besides all this i still have personal problems to attend to..my never ending personal probs which i have to face every single second, minute and day.. i noe Allah is testin me but sometimes i feel that it's too much for me to take..and i feel like giving up..but the next morning i wake up...and i realise that i'm alive..and i'm a teeny weeny bit stronger...and i'll ask myself.."where did i go wrong?".."have i really changed"..
but somehow at school..i put up a brave front..and act like nothing's wrong...i'm fine...too afraid to tell my frens abt my probs..cos i noe they ran out of words for me..words of advice, words of comfort...and it's ok..i'm sick of going to ppl and talking ...i do talk to mont blanc..he just stares back at me..but when i look in his eyes i noe that he understands....and i love to laugh randomly(now i sound like a mental patient) ...
went for ms iftar yest :)
got briyani....yay! was so happy...but i was late...so i didn't get to eat a lot..luckily they gave me
some to bring home...
| 10:42 PM |
Adieu.
