Tuesday, September 26, 2006
today was my official official holiday....aaa...so nice la..wake up late..rolled around in bed..i flattened chucky..(so kesian, but dun worry he's ok) look at him..he's fine...haha
i spent the whole day on the internet altho i had a lot of things to do..it was so so addictive.. there's so much things to do actually...and in the end satu kerja pun tak buat..sighs..i wasted on whole day..i was supposed to have tuition, the it was cancelled last minute.. so ok la..at least can terawih
anw..i'm gonna ramble a bit about love...hmmm...i believe that love is all about taking time..but how do u noe if u have to speed up or grab the oppurtunity at hand...will THE ON always wait for u..or will he move on if u do not respond to his wooing..
"it's better to have loved and lost then to have never love before"
sighs..why am i so emo nowadaes..i contemplate about love so much when there's so many pressing issues at hand..like my academic life..well in a way i am emo about that..i'm questioning whether i belong in nus..or whether this is just a route that i always thought i should take...am i apt for the challenge at hand..dun get me wrong i am having fun..but when i reflect back to my passion...i realise that it's not academic at all..in fact i dun even noe my passion..i just noe tat i like fashion and i like to shop..haha..but tat's not much is it..i want to do something i absolutely love in the future..or is that a bad idea cos i'd be too absorbed with work and actually forget everything else..yes that is extremmely possible...hmmm...once upon a time my dream was to marry my prince charming and live happily ever after.that's all..i am really a simple person..i realise that i dun dream big..which is a problem..cos dreaming big is very important for someone who wants to achieve success....ppl in university are high achievers..they wanna be the next Bill Gates, Donald Trump, etc..but me?...i wanna be a good wife and mother..hahaha..i sound like a kampung girl..(no offence to any kampung girls out there, just to prove that my dreams and aspiration is not in line with wat ppl in my generation want)..
anw..as u might notice my thots are not even organized anymore..everything's just one huge mess..and i am changing..i can feel it..i used to be so anal..but now i'm not the neat freak i was before..my rooms is rarely as neat as a pin as it was before..and i do not adhere strictly to the schedule that i set myself..i am definitely less disciplined now..which makes me feel extremely irrritated with myself...i used to be afraid..but i'm getting braver..(if not very brave, it's a lot braver then the old me)..i'm changing! and i dunno if it's a good thing..i feel like i've lost a part of the real me and i feel sad..but they said that change is always good and i am a strong believer in "there's a reason for everyhing"..
hmmm..yup tt's all for now..it's getting late..good night everyone ..
adieu
| 11:43 PM |
Adieu.
