Saturday, September 23, 2006
thiis morning..i woke up to my father knocking on my door asking me wat time my tuition was..thinking it was sunday..i told him that my tuition was late and went back to sleep..shirah came in at 8 to ask me why i still wasn't awake.wen i opened my eyes to see her dressed in her uniform i panicked and realize "shoot it's saturday and by 8 i was actually suppoed to be already at depot road teaching maths"..so i rushed into the bathroom and do all the necessary stuff and by lin record, i got ready in less then half an hour was very proud of myself..luckily my dad had work today so he could drop me off at my tuition place....phew..i reached at nine...so that meant that my schedule for the day was pushed backwards for half an hour...today's tuition was different in a sense that it was under the void deck which was better actually..my tutee's plce was surrounded by mount faber or something so it was really cooler...now i understand about the whole bringing down singapore's temperature by planting trees..thanks to my mod on natural heritage of singpore..yay! hahhaha..
so after that i rushed to my tajwid class..i was like late and luckily i only missed the re-cap on last week's lesson..so this week we just did readings of surah..and i'm getting better hopefully..still working on my arab accent..hahhaha...erm..ok la half way there not half as good as ustadz zul...today is tarawih..still can't believe that the holy month of Ramadhan is here once again..:D so maybe today i can practice on my arab accent during the quraan recitation..hahhaha..maybe eh...the last fifteen mins of the lesson ustadz zul just touched a bit about Ramadhan and how we have to seize the oppurtunity.bcos we never noe whether we will live to see the next Ramadhan..and the ganjaran for Ramadhan is like HUGE..and when he spoke about it i felt this like warm fuzzy feeling that Ramdhan is here once again..and i thought about last Ramadhan..what have i done since then...so much has changed but i wonder how much have i changed as a muslim..have i done anything to improve my faith in Allah?....is wat i'm doing enough?..i am so absorbed with the material world now...hahha..how much shopping i've done..hahahha..and how can i forget my problems..but the truth is the more pressing issue is whether i have done enough good deeds to bring me to the next stage..i still miss my prayers and i'm far from perfect..yet if it's my time to go...it's not gonna be delayed for even one second..how prepared am i?..yes i am young but haven't there been too many cases of the young dying without any warning...yes yes..reflections on my life.....it makes me feel i dunno..sayu...thinkin about all of it.(wat's the english word for that??) and i also realized something..that the decisions i make from now on has to always be based on whether it will take me a step closer to Allah...insyallah..in light with wat i'm going thru now..all the dilemma with matters of the heart..i came across an excerpt from a line of a surah, that when loosely translated means "with all the hardships that we go through, Allah promises success in the end"...and this is mentioned twice in the surah..so can u imagine the impact of it...subahanallah...so insyallah i will see the light at the end of all of this....
i guess i'm gonna end here...:) gotta do some researching for marketing for dsl..hehehe...happy fasting everyone!!! may we benefit as much as posssible this Ramadhan... :D
Adieu
lots and lots of love....
Lin
| 4:24 PM |
Adieu.
